Sunday, December 31, 2006
And watch The Secret, that new movie that's taking international cinema by storm, for free, here, thanks to Spiritual Cinema!!!
An Abundant New Year to Everyone!!!
1. Be a luck builder: make a habit of focusing on and finding the good in anyone and in anything.
2. Be clear about what you want, and ask for it!
3. Trust your intuition.
4. Respond with resilience.
5. Let yourself off the hook. Be kind to your self, and save your energies for finding the solutions, not stewing in the problem!
5. Have the right amount of patience.
6. Give and receive.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
And I basically adopted more water drinking as a way of life because of several initiating reasons: tight finances necessitated that my children and I drink water instead of our usual favorite beverages, which in turn led me to the pleasant discovery of feeling lighter and more focused and losing weight and looking good, which coincided with my meditation studies and practices, which led me to spiritual literature and spiritual cinema, like "What the Bleep Do You Know?", which mentioned the water experiments of a Japanese scientist, Dr. Masaru Emoto, on the amazing effects of both positive and negative thoughts on water!
So, when I received an invitation from Vance Alford to check out Xooma and after I read and studied what Xooma was all about, I became very excited! Somehow, it rang true to both my heart and experience! And somehow, too, things seem to be coming together, addressing my first reasons for turning into a water-rooted way of life: as a way to deal with tight finances and wanting not only to look and feel better about my self and my life in general, but living a life of Abundance in all ways.
It has been such a wondrous journey, and I believe Xooma is not just any MLM company out to fatten its Network by feeding off its downlines, but a unique business that both offers a product that not only improves health but even helps promote a more peaceful way of life, as well as lets everybody in on sharing all the Abundance this Universe yearns to give to us all!
In case you're wondering what I do (and whether I'm just one of those tree-hugging kookies talking about the Universe, etc. : >)-- well, I teach Economics, Cultural Studies and Communications courses at a well-respected university in our city, a freelance writer, researcher, speaker and trainer, and a multi-awarded children's book writer in my country, and I'm willing to put my name and reputation on the line for such a worthy endeavor as this!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
it made me misty, just finally saying it.
this is all i want for Christmas, and all the rest of my Christmases, forever.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
over the last 10 months, so many miracles have happened i am actually beginning to expect them more than not expect them!
still, i have my days struggling with disempowering thoughts and feelings, and i feel that i need a more formalized structure now through the Course and the network of support it provides.
...especially now that i feel like im going for the Gold of my dreams now, and all the rest that came before were just practice.
strange, though, that what i am after now, is not so much the material side of Abundance (i feel rich now... and i am looking forward to just getting richer and richer! heehee) but the higher emotional, psychological, psychic and even spiritual side of Abundance... in the form of True Love, at last.
now that i can see it within my reach, i want to do everything i can to prepare my self for it and be worthy and knowledgeable of it, to do everything Right at last, and not lose out or throw it away by ignorance or default.
God help me as i reach for my Gold now!!!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Does Your Manifesting Formula Add Up?
By Jeannette Maw
Manifesting what we want can be thought of as a balance between two
parts: action and thought. Inspired action and right thought are powerful
ingredients to making the impossible happen. Getting the right mix
between these elements is crucial for deliberate creation.
Many of us tend to rely on one over the other in manifesting our
desires. For example, roughly a third of my clients rely primarily on thought
to create what they want, while two-thirds incline toward action. No
matter which way you lean, if you’re out of balance with one or the other
your manifesting efforts are handicapped.
What is inspired action? Simply put, it’s action that feels good. It’s
taking the step that lifts your energy; following your intuition; or
somehow getting the energy moving in the physical world. It could look
like making a call to a new connection, purchasing a book that catches
your attention, attending a workshop that intrigues you, or even taking a
What is right thought? Thoughts that are in alignment with what you
want. They create a vibration that is in accordance with the end result
you desire. Right thoughts feel good, point you in the right direction,
and support right action.
How do you know if you’ve got a good balance? The evidence of your life
will tell you. Are things happening the way you’d like? Or are you
struggling to make your wish list come true? If you’re not making progress
towards your goal, look at the two ingredients to the manifesting
formula to see whether you’re light on inspired action or right thought.
Adding emphasis to the missing element is magical. Creating a balance
of right thought with inspired action will catapult you on your path to success!
If Action is Missing
If you realize your thoughts are in alignment with your desire, but you
haven’t taken any steps in the physical world to allow it to manifest,
here’s a tip for creating inspired action.
Whatever your goal or intention is, conduct yourself as if you’ve
already achieved it. Act as if you already are the success you desire.
For example, if you want to drop a few pounds, act as if you already
have. Ask yourself what would a lighter person wear today? What would a
size 8 girl eat for breakfast? How would an ideal weight guy answer the
phone? What would he do for fun tonight? When would he go to bed and
what would he do before bed? Become the lower-weight person with your
actions, and your body will reflect your new vibration.
Acting as if is a powerful tool for creating vibrational alignment!
If Right Thought Is Missing
If you’re taking plenty of action that feels good but thoughts are
running amok, here’s one remedy. Imagine the end result you want and place
yourself in this scene of success. Now ask yourself what beliefs
allowed you to create this success. What were the thought patterns that
allowed you to manifest this achievement?
Suppose financial abundance is your goal. As you imagine your
prosperous lifestyle, what beliefs do you hold that facilitated that success?
Perhaps you knew you were capable of anything. Maybe it was that you
believed financial abundance was your birthright or natural state. Or maybe
it was that your time would come, or the Universe has your best
interests at heart.
Whatever thought pattern you identify as being in accordance with this
imaginary manifestation, bring that to life now. Use affirmations or
mantras to enhance those supportive beliefs in your present daily life.
Create a regular routine for incorporating these thoughts into your
mind. After all: as you think, so shall it be!
Bottom line – getting what we want isn’t as hard as we often make it
out to be.
Combining inspired action with right thoughts allows us to make
miracles happen. Happy Manifesting!
Jeannette Maw is an Attraction Coach and founder of Good Vibe Coaching
in Salt Lake City, Utah specializing in helping clients get what they
want, once and for all. Free tips to make your wish list come true are
yours monthly in her "Get What You Want" ezine, along with an instant
free report for Vibrating Wealth, when you sign up at
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Step 1: See the world as an abundant, providing, friendly place. When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. When you see the world as abundant and friendly, your intentions are genuine possibilities. They will, in fact, become a certainty, because your world will be experienced from the higher frequencies. In this first step, you're receptive to a world that provides rather than restricts. You'll see a world that wants you to be successful and abundant, rather than one that conspires against you.
Step 2: Affirm: I attract success and abundance into my life because that is who I am. This puts you into vibratory harmony with your Source. Your goal is to eliminate any distance between what you desire and that from which you pull it into your life. Abundance and success aren't out there waiting to show up for you. You are already it, and the Source can only provide you with what it is, and, consequently, what you are already.
Step 3: Stay in an attitude of allowing. Resistance is disharmony between your desire for abundance and your beliefs about your ability or unworthiness. Allowing means a perfect alignment. An attitude of allowing means that you ignore efforts by others to dissuade you. It also means that you don't rely on your pervious ego-oriented beliefs about abundance being a part of or not a part of your life. In an attitude of allowing, all resistance in the form of thoughts of negativity or doubt are replaced with simply knowing that you and your Source are one and the same. Picture the abundance you desire freely flowing directly to you. Refuse to do anything or have any thought that compromises your alignment with Source.
Step 4: Use your present moments to activate thoughts that are in harmony with the seven faces of intention [creativity, kindness, love, beauty, expansion, abundance, and peaceful receptivity]. The key phrase here is present moments. Notice right now, in this moment, if you're thinking that it's hopeless at this stage of your life to change the thoughts that comprise your belief system. Do you defeat yourself with thoughts of having had such a long life practicing affirmations of scarcity and creating resistance to your success and abundance that you don't have enough time left to counterbalance the thoughts that comprise your belief system?
Make the choice to let go of that lifetime of beliefs, and begin activating thoughts rights now that allow you to feel good. Say I want to feel good whenever anyone tries to convince you that your desires are futile. Say I want to feel good when you're tempted to return to low energy thoughts of disharmony with intention. Eventually your present moments will activate thoughts that make you feel good, and this is an indicator that you're reconnecting to intention. Wanting to feel good is synonymous with wanting to feel God. Remember, "God is good, and all that God created was good."
Step 5: Initiate actions that support your feelings of abundance and success. Here, the key word is actions. I've been calling this acting as if or thinking from the end and acting that way. Put your body into a gear that pushes you toward abundance and feeling successful. Act on those passionate emotions as if the abundance and success you seek is already here. Speak to strangers with passion in your voice. Answer the telephone in an inspired way. Do a job interview from the place of confidence and joy. Read the books that mysteriously show up, and pay close attention to conversation that seem to indicate you're being called to something new.
Step 6: Remember that your prosperity and success will benefit others, and that no one lacks abundance because you've opted for it. The supply is unlimited. The more you partake of the universal generosity, the more you'll have to share with others. In writing this book, wonderful abundance has flowed into my life in many ways. But even more significantly, book editors and graphic designers, the truck drivers who deliver the book, the auto workers who build the trucks, the farmers who feed the auto workers, and bookstore clerks. all receive abundance because I've followed my bliss and have written this book.
Step 7: Monitor your emotions as a guidance system for your connection to the universal mind of intention. Strong emotions such as passion and bliss are indications that you're connected to Spirit, or inspired, if you will. When you're inspired, you activate dormant forces, and the abundance you seek in any form comes streaming into your life. When you're experiencing low-energy emotions of rage, anger, hatred, anxiety, despair, and the like, that's a clue that while your desires may be strong, they're completely out of sync with the field of intention. Remind yourself in these moments that you want to feel good, and see if you can activate a thought that supports your feeling good.
Step 8: Become as generous to the world with your abundance as the field of intention is to you. Don't stop the flow of abundant energy by hoarding or owning what you receive. Keep it moving. Use your prosperity in the service of others, and for causes greater than your ego. The more you practice detachment, the more you'll stay in vibratory harmony with the all-giving Source of everything.
Step 9: Devote the necessary time to meditate on the Spirit within as the source of your success and abundance. There's no substitute for the practice of meditation. This is particularly relevant with abundance. You must have an understanding that your consciousness of the presence is your supply. By repeating the sound that is in the name of God as a mantra, you're using a technique for manifesting as ancient as recorded history. I am particularly drawn to the form of meditation called Japa. I know it works.
Step 10: Develop an attitude of gratitude for all that manifests into your life. Be thankful and filled with awe and appreciation, even if what you desire hasn't arrived yet. Even the darkest days of your life are to be looked on with gratitude. Everything coming from Source is on purpose. Be thankful while empowering your reconnection to that form from which you and everything else originated.
The energy that creates worlds and universes is within you. It works through attraction and energy. Everything vibrates; everything has a vibratory frequency. As St. Paul said, "God is able to provide you with every blessing in abundance." Tune to God's frequency, and you will know it beyond any and all doubt!
Monday, October 02, 2006
"Our life is what our thoughts make it. A man will find that as he alters his thoughts toward things and other people, things and other people will alter towards him. "
—James Allen, 19th Century English writer, author of As A Man Thinketh
It really sounds too easy to be true, doesn't it? When we are told we can change our lives by changing our minds, most of us are usually a bit skeptical. Oh, we may try it out, change our thought patterns for a bit just to see if the idea has any credence at all, but then later when we look around and see that pretty much everything is as it was, we shrug our shoulders with that familiar "just what I expected" shrug and move on. We do not see the changes made on the molecular level, we do not notice the way every single cell in our bodies responds to the change of thought, we do not see how the universe responds by clearing paths and setting up meetings and re-arranging circumstances. We see none of this and so deem our bodies and our minds powerless to change and then we return at once to the exact same thought patterns that brought us to and keep us bound in the place we do not want to be. And when we do, every cell in our body returns to that state it was in before, and every cleared path becomes once more cluttered, and every meeting canceled and every circumstance unarranged.
Changing our lives is a great deal like building a house. It is not done by hammering one nail in a board but by repeated application. Over and over we must let our minds center on the life we would live instead of on the one being lived. And just as applying hammer to wood repeatedly can eventually lead to the completed frame of a new house, so can steadfast application of one thought to another lead to the completed frome of a new life.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Monday, September 25, 2006
The Magic of Empowering Questions
"I always wanted to be somebody, but I should have been more specific." – Lily Tomlin
If you pay attention to your self-talk, you will notice that you ask yourself a lot of questions. Some of these questions serve you well and others don’t. Questions that feel good raise your vibration while questions that feel bad lower your vibration.
Have you ever started your day with downer questions like – How bad will the traffic be this morning? How grouchy is the boss gonna be? How many complaining customers will I have to deal with today? If so, you’re in the process of attracting heavy traffic, an unpleasant boss and whining customers.
Try empowering questions instead – What if it’s blue skies and green lights all the way to work today? Wouldn’t it be fun to make the boss laugh today? I wonder how many customers I can uplift today? Which questions feel better?
Here are my some of my favorite feel-good questions -- guaranteed to raise my vibration:
- What would make me feel really good today?
- What can I feel excited and enthusiastic about today?
- How can I uplift others today?
- What would I like the Universe to do for me today?
- What if I make Feeling Good the most important thing today?
- How good does it feel to know that the Universe is saying YES to all my desires and supporting me in their fulfillment?
- How good does it feel to know that my life is unfolding perfectly?
- How tuned in, tapped in, turned on can I be today?
- How much joy, love and appreciation can I feel today?
- What magnificent people and fabulous experiences would I like to attract today?
Sunday, September 24, 2006
“If thoughts can do that to water, imagine what our thoughts can do to
– from the movie, What the Bleep Do We Know!?
According to the Law of Attraction***, we attract into our lives whatever
we focus on. Quantum Physics teaches that nothing is fixed, that there
are no limitations, that everything is vibrating Energy. By
understanding that everything is Energy in a state of potential and by applying
the Law of Attraction to bring into our lives whatever we focus on, it
is never necessary to feel stuck with an undesirable life.
We are Creators of the Universe. The classical physics of Newton takes
a material perspective in which the Universe is composed of discrete
building blocks, solid and unchangeable. Quantum Physics takes a
spiritual perspective in which there are no separate parts, in which everything
is fluid and always changing.
The physical world is a sea of Energy constantly flashing into and out
of existence. We transform this invisible Energy into observable
reality through our thoughts. We are, therefore, constantly creating our
reality with our thoughts. With Quantum Physics, science is leaving behind
the notion that human beings are powerless victims and moving toward an
understanding that we are fully empowered creators of our lives and of
With Newton, we were insignificant cogs in the Universal Machinery.
With Quantum Physics, we are Creators of the Universe.
Everything is Energy. Einstein’s 1905 formula E = mc2 explains the
relationship between Energy and matter. It explains that Energy and matter
are interchangeable; that everything is Energy – dancing, fluid,
This Energy is shapeable, formable, and moldable. As Creators, we
shape, form and mold the Energy of the Universe through our thoughts. We
transform the Energy of our thoughts into the Energy of our reality.
The Physics of Possibility. The popular movie, What the Bleep Do We
Know!?, clarifies that Quantum Physics is the physics of possibility. We
have been conditioned to believe that the external world is more real
than the internal world. Quantum Physics says just the opposite. It says
that what’s happening on the inside determines what’s happening on the
outside. It says that our world is shaped by our thoughts.
Since nothing is fixed and everything is in a state of potential,
everything is possible. As we understand that there are no limitations, and
as we focus our thoughts on what we want to attract, we can literally
call into existence anything and everything we desire.
My ten-year old nephew loves the expression – “It could happen!” He
probably doesn’t know much about the physics of possibility, but he
practices it with his great attitude. He reminds me to entertain possibility.
He reminds me that nothing is impossible.
Dreams into Reality. The Universe exists as infinite potential in
infinite abundance. As we focus our thoughts, we have the power to bring our
desires into existence, our dreams into reality. As we focus our
thoughts, we have the power to be and do and have whatever we desire.
***The Law of Attraction states that vibrations of a certain frequency
attract other vibrations of the same frequency and that we attract in
accordance with our thoughts and feelings, consciously or not.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
these days, i am so busy with so many income-generating projects, i don't have time to spend the income i earn from them anymore!!! : O
oohhhh, it's not much (yet), but enough to start generating surplus.
and what is so special about this now is that im not running around for the money; im just driven by passion for all these kinds of work i already loved doing in the first place, even if i wasn't paid for them!
how has this come about? sometimes i catch my self and ask.
1. clearing my Mind and teaching it to think only on what i desired was a major thing. the clearing part, especially, took months of hard inner work. when you've spent a lifetime reacting automatically to the events and people around you, thinking negative thoughts when things go wrong (or sometimes,just seem to be going wrong) and thinking positive thoughts only when things are already going right.... it takes supreme self-consciousness to catch one's self and one's thoughts, and check them against what one truly wants to manifest, and then transform these negative thoughts into positive ones, even if appearances show you have more reason to think negatively than positively.
ooohhh i researched and followed so many tools and exercises for clarifying one's mind, too. the most helpful for me, though, has been the learning from Stuart Lichtman's cybernetic transposition, and EFT (or Emotional Freedom Technique).
i have developed a quicker, simpler way for my self, though, after trying out all these tools-- i simply either just write down whatever it is i am feeling and thinking, pour them all out in my journal (called "framing"), and then, after everything has been poured out, i write down my favorite affirmation at the time at least 10 times in my diary, over and over and over, until, my mind feels cleared, and i feel much better.
for so many months now, this has been my favorite affirmation--
God's wealth is circulating in our lives. God's wealth flows to us and through us in avalanches of Abundance. All our needs, desires and goals are instantaneously met, because we are One with God, and God is our Infinite and Abundant Supply, and God is Everything.
of course, it might not mean a thing or strike any chord for you, but it does for me. affirmations, to be most effective, have to be very personally meaningful. it helps, too, to research on what are the effective affirmations used by others out there, take the ones one likes, and refine them according to one's own special needs and resonances.
so far, i have used up 3 notebooks in 9 months' time, just doing these clarifying and affirming exercises.
2. getting into the habit of Gratitude, too, has been a major thing. in fact, even before i learned the techniques of clearing one's Mind, i first stumbled into the power of living life daily in a state of Gratitude. it not only helps one feel instantly better, it sets one's disposition automatically in alignment with an Abundance consciousness or mentality, instead of otherwise.
how can one ever feel poor when one recognizes so much to be grateful for?
this automatic "re-alignment" actually then aligns one's self in the pathway of blessings and Abundance. i've had it happen to me too many times already for it to be purely coincidental. whenever i thank God/the Universe/Life for what i have, what i've had, and especially even for what's coming, somehow, doors open where i never thought there were even doors! i meet people or am placed in circumstances where my way is just almost perfectly paved for me, even when i my self lack the material resources to secure them for my self.
i have experienced going to Manila and back, with only 80 pesos in my wallet, for instance.
and having our almost brand-new Vios, all fully paid for, given to me by my father whom i used to think was Mr. Scrooge personified, with no strings attached, when before the kids and i made do with a rickety almost 30-year-old car which kept conking out and leaving us stranded wherever, is a major miracle in my life!!! and what i remember most before the Vios came was that i've learned to accept it gracefully and even joyfully whenever the old car conked out, thanking God still that at least it was just our car conking out but that we were safe and healthy, and then thanking God too for the new replacement car coming our way!!! : D that last part actually became such a habit, it felt like some kind of private joke i shared with God already, every time the old car conked out. "thank you God, for the new replacement coming our way!!! (wink, wink!)" : D
3. part of growing into Abundance is developing an Abundance Mentality, instead of still catering to the usual poverty and scarcity mentality of our culture. whenever im asked by anybody, stranger or not, as long as i have the resources, i share whatever i can, and i give them freely, time, energies and/or money.
particularly with money, when i part with it, deep inside me i part with it willingly and freely, blessing the person receiving it from me, whether in the form of payment or alms. when someone overcharges me, or "steals" from me in some way, instead of cursing them and getting angry and self-righteous, i try to understand why they did what they did, sympathize with their needs, and bless them anyway. i figure, if they can't or won't pay me what's due me, i'll just charge it all to Heaven, which must surely pay me back, my cup overflowing.
i learned, too, to treat my self like the goddess that i am and that i deserved to be. this meant many shifts in thinking and behavior, like not eating my children's leftovers anymore (does a goddess ever eat leftovers???), learning to feel good and even finally revel in splurging on my self without guilt (why would a goddess scrimp on being good to her self???) and finally, learning to part with money graciously and happily, believing and trusting now that there's always more where that comes from, where this goddess comes from!!! : D
and yes, they work.
biblical, magical? maybe. but i have a strong suspicion now that it's just basically certain fundamental universal principles and laws, like the laws of physics and gravity.
Mind creates all. Imagination and Will choose what to create. Attitude and Emotions attract like matter, people and circumstances.
so choose well. think only of what you have chosen. and get into the spirit/habit/consciousness of the stuff what you have chosen is made of.
that is all.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
We have not been raised to cultivate a sense of Mystery. We may even see the unknown as an insult to our competence, a personal failing. Seen this way, the unknown becomes a challenge to action. But Mystery does not require action; Mystery requires our attention. Mystery requires that we listen and become open. When we meet with the unknown in this way, we can be touched by a wisdom that can transform our lives.
Mystery has great power. In the many years I have worked with people with cancer, I have seen Mystery comfort people when nothing else can comfort them and offer hope when nothing else offers hope. I have seen Mystery heal fear that is otherwise unhealable. For years I have watched people in their confrontation with the unknown recover awe, wonder, joy, and aliveness. They have remembered that life is holy, and they have reminded me as well. In losing our sense of Mystery, we have become a nation of burned-out people. People who wonder do not burn out….
Perhaps real wisdom lies in not seeking answers at all. Any answer we find will not be true for long. An answer is a place where we can fall asleep as life moves past us to its next question. After all these years I have begun to wonder if the secret of living well is not in having all the answers but in pursuing unanswerable questions in good company.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
in between (and even during some) short-lived crushes and romances, when i pined and still longed for that special Someone who was truly of my own heart and soul, i would play the song or-- if it wasn't readily available-- even sing or hum the song to my self, to comfort me, to keep my hopes up, to keep holding out for more, for something better, higher, finer, truer... even as the loneliness of feeling so alone in this world threatened to engulf me into despair.
but i only realized the meaning of the coincidence early this morning while driving the children to school, and i was thinking of M (again), and the song played, again...
Be brave little one
Make a wish for each sad litte tear
Hold your head up
Though no one is near
Someone's waiting for you
Don't cry little one
There'll be a smile where a frown used to be
You'll be part of the love that you see
Someone's waiting for you
Always keep a little prayer in your pocket
And you're sure to see the light
Soon there'll be joy and happiness
And your little world will be bright
Have faith little one
Till your hopes and your wishes come true
You must try to be brave little one
Someone's waiting to love you
"little one"... "little one"... "little one"!!!
why didn't i notice it sooner when it's been there all along???
it was the Universe's way of telling me, to sit up and pay full attention, to this special man in my life now: a heart's desire is finally being answered!!!
no wonder the first time M called me "little one", it felt like... coming home.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
a year and a half ago, i decided to stop "playing around" with short-term flings and little romances, because even if they were fun adventures, they were not doing any good to my mental, emotional and even physical health in the long run, with the risks i were taking. ive learned what i had to learn, i figured, "sowed my oats", so to speak, and so i thought it was time for me to settle down into my self, and give to me the loving that i sought elsewhere but never seemed to get, just love me and give to me and pamper me as i deserved, at last.
and so it went that as i got used to loving me just as i am, i met friends -- men and women -- who were also more of the giving types, not the taker types i used to be surrounded with before. and their friendships and nurturing further bolstered my sense of value, of feeling more deserving of true and good loving just as i am, without my having to do anything else to earn it or to pay for it.
a little over two months ago, i was introduced by an old college friend to a man whom i connected with so deeply and so soon, it brought that old girlhood dream and mantra... "soulmate"... back to life for me again.
im taking it slow this time, though... making sure i do it right this time. and surprisingly for me (i have been with men before who just pushed and rushed and insisted, never mind what i wanted or how i felt about things), he respects it and abides by it. our friendship's developing beautifully; he is like the amalgamation of all the other friends ive had over the past year and a half. he has introduced me to his mom, and his mom and i hit it off quick too. : ) he told me one time how "bizaare" his feelings for me are-- "i cannot imagine life without you in it, and yet you have just arrived in it!"
what never ceases to amaze me is, in addition to the fact of our quick and deep connection, his life circumstances are in such a way that they fit mine, and mine his, supporting each other's dreams, filling each other's little lacks.... oohhh, almost like a perfect fit. bizaare, indeed. one example is even before i met him, i resolved to my self that i will take a leave of absence from my day job by next schoolyear, to create space for my heart's true desires-- writing and reading and maybe even more travelling through the family business and my burgeoning speaking career. now, here comes a man who is not only very passionate about reading and writing (and his mom and only sister are writers too!) but a world traveler too, who is seeking to settle down at last yet still also wants to introduce me and my little ones to the places he has been! i still secretly glow from his solemn promise-- "someday, we will all travel, including your little treasures." : ) : ) : )
of course, one side of me says maybe it is still too early to know for sure, that time will tell. but so far, things have been growing beautifully, everyday miracles manifesting.
if not for anything else, what i love (we haven't spoken that L word yet...so hush...) most about this man is that he makes me laugh. even when he complains and rants about his day, without his meaning to, they always come out funny, and he just makes me laugh, and feel warm all over. i could live with someone who makes me laugh, no matter what, for the rest of my life!
oohh, God, help me be worthy; God help me do it right this time!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
"I am in an honest-to-goodness, loving, healthy, affirming relationship, based on trust, love and respect, which, with God's Grace, lasts a lifetime.
I am with a good man who is single, available, honest and kind, loving and responsible, healthy, takes good care of himself and his life, positive about life and growing and learning as I am, and with a strong sense of dignity and honor. He loves me and my children with all his heart, mind, body and soul."
last night, i slept early, tired from work but happy and satisfied from a day well used, yet also feeling pensive and very private. there was this sense of being alone and separate, just a little cog in the Universe, inconsequential, dispensable...
maybe it was from an earlier chat with older women colleagues (i was the youngest) yesterday after lunch at the faculty office, where we somehow got to talk about womanly things, and one 60-year-old colleague shared how she didnt like having sex with her husband anymore because she has become too dry and it has become painful, and there was ribbing and cackling and more womanly sharing and advices, and i gently, shyly offered my own advises.... and the attention turned to me, and they asked me if i still planned on marrying again someday, and i said yes, but im more discerning now, that i want to do it right this time, and it's not as if it's a "must have" for me, how if the right fit happens, id go for it, but if it won't, it won't make my life any less complete or less happy, unlike in the twenties when one first marries and one actually marries for other reasons... and then somebody nodded sagely and said, "yes, i get what you mean; companionship is best." and everybody else echoed the sage nodding.
the bell rang and we all had to move on to our classes, so i chose not to respond anymore. but, that small comment must have done it-- led to how i felt for the rest of the day, even when i tried to shake it off.
no, companionship is not best. it was the farthest thing from what i was trying to say. no, i wasn't even talking about companionship! but yes, i got the undertone of that well-intentioned comment: "dear, you're young but already in your late 30s, and with 3 kids. what single, available and quality guy would marry you for love?"
that, i guess, led to my feeling suddenly very alone.
still, the Universe supports, and sends me gentle reminders my way, from unexpected sources at that.
i just received a very nice comment from somebody, who invited me to check out her blog, too, and her latest post quickly changed my perspective, reminding me what it's all about. thank you, i_heart_80s! (thank you, too, for linking this blog in yours, and your Abraham-Hicks link in your blog! ive heard about them here and there but only got to be introduced to the essence of the teachings through your link!)
the last two days, too, have been a bit challenging for me in the heart department. i have been missing somebody very badly. although i love him, i am trying to extricate my self from him, because i am the "third party"... and since i started "going back home" recently and resolving to my self that i will be doing it right this time (with regards to him, maybe wait when our time comes, but not really "waiting" in the sense of postponing my life for him but just going on, letting what should be should be, letting things unfold naturally in my life), my resolve has been weakening lately, too, because i missed this person.
then, out of the blue, i get a call from mama, telling me how happy she is to know that i've been going to church again lately, and how she felt urged to sign me up for this quality online dating site! : ) awwww, ma...... !!! ( the smiley was not for the dating site but for mama's ideas!)
a few hours later, a good friend from Australia whom i haven't corresponded with in a long time suddenly messages me just to let me know and share with me how happy he was to have recently found the love of his life, and reminding me that it will come for me soon enough too! : ) that was sweet of him, to tell me that he prays for me to find what i deserve, too.
and yes, i got the point from these unexpected Universal "nudges"-- telling me through this experiences that ive made the right decision and that it's supporting me on my Path.
thank You, Universe!
Thursday, July 06, 2006
i seem to be attracting the good quality guys these days.
i didn't write it publicly in my Desire List, although i wrote it in my diaries from time to time, but it seems like, at last, the Universe is answering my heart's call.
good-hearted, smart, accomplished, goodlooking and available men seem to be coming out of the woodwork these days, when, for most of my life, i thought they were non-existent.
in my teens, i attracted and was attracted to the bad boys, those dumb jocks from the lowest academic classes.
i didnt have much of a carefree single life in my twenties as the first man courageous (or what i thought was courage then) enough to defy my father's strict protectiveness, became my husband.
after the marriage, for a time, i met mostly losers, if not outright users even, who had major psychological and emotional flaws in them.
then, there was a phase, too, when Jackie Collins' book title kept insinuating itself into my consciousness-- The World is Full of Married Men!
lately, though, things seemed to just have suddenly and quickly changed. i don't even have to look for them. people i know take pains to introduce me to their single and available male friends, who, from their c.v.s alone, are who would qualify in most mothers' books as "good catches".
is this a happy by-product of all my inner work? : ) i suspect that maybe, my consciousness has grown quite a significant bit, thus upping the ante on the kinds of men i attract into my world now quite a notch.
but im not jumping at the opportunities all giddy and silly now. strange how i have reached a state where i can really just sit back and enjoy all the attention im receiving, holding my ground, without feeling anxious nor guilty nor too fearful about it now. i want and i desire, still, yet, i am just enjoying it, not concerned anymore about outcomes and expectations.
is this how the law of detachment works, within the law of attraction? i have heard it said many times before-- it is when you stop looking that you finally find.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
and usually, for me, more than anything else, the teacher usually comes in the form of books.
i was at the nearby mall with the kids yesterday, because thea needed to buy some supplies for her school projects. and i was just standing by a book display waiting for her to finish, even as i also waited for paolo who asked to run upstairs for a quick peek at the toy section.
i was standing there watching people, and then my eyes strayed to the books and the very big sign calling out to me -- Books for P50 Each Only! Right next to it was a magazine rack with the sign -- Magazines, P60 Each, and it amused me to note how books can be cheaper than magazines now.
the books were old and appeared a bit used, but they were good books, some of them classics even, in mostly hardbound copies. so i started browsing... and, by the time, the kids came up to me, ready to go home, i had already chosen 4 books to buy, with the following blurbs--
1. The Passionate Life-- Stages of Loving, by Sam Keen: "... a needed, well-written and most engaging slap in the face of the 'Playboy philosophy'. its trivialization of the erotic and its nearly exclusive emphasis on sexual proficiency as the definition of love; ... this wise and beautiful essay breathes new life into our thinking about love and sexuality. Sam Keen wants us to regard eros as an impulse or energy that links us to the whole web of life rather than a strictly sexual-romantic thing..."
2. Living In the Light, by Shakti Gawain: "... shows us a new way of life--becoming 'a channel for the creative power of the universe'. The key is in learning to listen to your intuition, and to act on it at all times, even at the risk of going against old patterns, expectations and belief systems."
3. The All-True Travels and Adventures of Liddie Newton, by Jane Smiley: "... The richly entertaining saga of a woman whom Huck Finn would have been proud to claim as his big sister... Liddie is a splendid creation."
4. The Age of Grief, by Jane Smiley: " (This) luminous novella explores the vicissitudes of love, friendship, and marriage with all the compassion and insight that have come to be expected from (this) Pulitzer Prize-winning author..."
in my research classes, we have a tool called "mind mapping" in trying to understand where a person is at at the very precise moment their minds are being mapped.
if the books i have just attracted (have become attracted to) now are an any indication, the blurbs might as well reveal where my mind is at now, too-- and the lessons i am ready to learn, or re-learn...
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
i was lying in bed last night, on my tummy, drawing my budget again for the next period. i thank God that, compared to previous years at this time of year (school opening season with all the school opening expenses), i am able to meet my obligations, and even have something more to settle old standing ones. still, after drawing my budget, though, i realized that there were two things i will have to postpone for a while, as we didn't have the funds for them-- a complete car tune-up (just to get the new car on a good start) and new clothes for the kids and i (they're outgrowing theirs, thea is even wearing mine now, and my old clothes are ... well... really old, as in circa married days and even pre-married days! a lifetime ago...).
anyway, as what usually happens when i discover that my current and expected funds are not enough to cover all foresseen needs, i start getting anxious, trying to brainstorm now solutions for either how i could generate more and/or how we could live with less.
i actually started doing that, this time, marking a new page on my notebook, "Solutions", when i remembered Anisa Aven's manifesting template (you submit a manifesting story to her, she sends you this template). which basically says that manifesting is basically a three-step process: create your Intent, vibrate with your Intent (through Gratitude, faith, positive expectancy, inspired action preparing to receive your Intent), and receive your Intent. but along the way, we usually get sidetracked on a detour around and through our blocks (fear, doubt, anxiety, negative emotions and thoughts, etc.) and it is this that we need practice working through by clearing them.
for last night, though, with this remembrance and recognition, i just simply decided to not entertain the sprouting anxiety, doubts and fears. i actually wrote in my notebook with a big circle and a big star and a big arrow-- "This is for God/the Universe to work on. I will just create the space, and watch and wait."
after writing that, i went to sleep (as sleep is an effective antidote for me in chasing anxieties and blues away) at 630 pm, while waiting for dinner.
i must've overslept though, as i was only awakened by thea because of a phone call.
it was my brother, T, who shared good news-- mama's tax refund of $5000 had just come through and mama said it was to be divided among T, our sister and i!!!
how faster things manifest when we are cleared of all the blocks, huh?!!!
even now, i am still sooooo amazed.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
i've created it in Word and placed a shortcut to it on my desktop so i can quickly and easily access it to review it and add to it each time.
so here is a copy of my "Found Abundance" log so far--
Eternal Thank Yous!
- my life, my mind, my body, my heart, my will, my talents, my experiences and lessons so far
- my children
- our good health
- our happy and safe home
- the love of our families and friends
- the love of J, and the lesser loves and lessons that came before
- our school
- my work
- my peace work
- good food
- comfortable shelter
- good clothes and shoes
- opportunities to grow and rise up to our highest potentials
As of Tuesday, May 09, 2006 –
- Citibank amnesty program and surprisingly pleasant communications all throughout the negotiations
- P14,000 Pag-IBIG automatic credits to our mortgage, lessening the amount I have to update
- P1000 Iyas creative writing workshop surprise honorarium for my documenting it
- Able to meet budget at Palmas
- Able to meet budget this period/cycle without borrowing from others
- LG and WB gracefully waiting for me to finish my writing projects with them, so i can be paid
- the chance to earn extra (and develop further my speaking/training career for future income streams) from the Basic Communication Skills teaching opportunity
As of Thursday, May 11, 2006 –
- J‘s $40 arriving quicker than expected, one day only instead of two days!
- Mrs. S told me I have honoraria for catalogue updating, even if it’s my half summer load!
- A approved my enrolling at TRANSCEND Global Univeristy for online PJ course, tuition to be taken from Project funds’ staff development budget!
- When I get paid from the Basic Communication Skills training, and in addition to my projected savings of 10k from TBS commission, I will have already covered two months of my Citibank monthly 12k payables to fully settle my account with them by November!
for all the Blessings we have received,
for all the Blessings we are receiving,
and all the Blessings coming our way!!!
Friday, April 28, 2006
in my list of Intentions some four months ago, paying off the last of my credit card debt was in it. it's not exactly a debt i truly incurred for my own use (guess who incurred it for his own use, using his supplementary card to mine), but the card and account is in my name, and so, as the last vestige of a past id rather move on from fully now, i want to clear my name there too and start clean.
it was not exactly in my priority of intentions, somewhere below the priority for the car, which was even also not a top priority either (the new car was somewhere in the middle).
but last monday, after three years of numerous threatening and obnoxious demand letters from different collection agencies which i basically ignored (what could i do then, i didnt have the means to even pay the minimum amount due), i received a letter from the bank itself and a collection agency it was partnering with, in a friendlier and more helpful tone, telling me that they're offering me 50% discount off my outstanding balance due to settle my account!
what is strange for me about it is, it specifically answered two questions ive just kept in my mind for future use when i get the means to finally pay it off--- about whether id promptly receive a Certificate of Clearance from them, and whether they'd also promptly erase my name from the Negative List of the bankers' association. these were something never addressed by any of the demand letters before, and to which not many people have information on. my jaw fell as i read this new letter this time; it specifically answered these two questions, almost as if it heard what i asked only in my mind! : O
anyway, over the last 3 days, i managed to negotiate a good deal with the bank, for me to pay the 50% remaining balance after the amnesty discount is applied over a series of 6 months' installment, as i explained to them that i will get the means to pay the installments from my peace project honoraria.
it was a mutually satisfactory and very decent deal for all involved and i was already happy with it.
but, what do you know?
as the week ended, my peace project colleagues asked me if they could pay my six-months' honoraria in lumpsum this May instead of monthly, so that the amount left is entirely left to the project's operations!
heavens, yes, yes, YES!!! : )
Friday, April 14, 2006
I thought I'd want a more spacious, red one, that didn't need the maintenance headaches I was having with my old car-- that was my bottomline requirement. At that time, the Toyota Innova had just hit the market and I thought I wanted something quite like it.
So, I researched the Innova at Toyota's website and downloaded a picture of a red Innova for my desktop. Then when I'd see a Toyota Innova on the streets, I'd smile at it, as if in greeting and recognition, and say a secret prayer, "Thank You, God, for the Toyota Innova coming our way!" : ) : ) : )
This begun last December, 2005. But, over four months, it has gotten to be such a habit that even just seeing the Toyota logo anywhere automatically prompts me to smile and thank for the Toyota coming our way. : ) I wasn't in a hurry; in fact, I was having fun.
I didn't care nor worry anymore about how it will come about; I just trusted that it will, in time, when it is right.
At around the same time, my brother, T, felt sorry for my frequent car troubles, especially after he learned that the kids and I would frequently absent ourselves from school and work when the car conked out, as we couldn't afford the extra P300 a day taxi budget for commutes, in addition to the car trouble costs. He broached to Papa about helping us out with a new secondhand car, and Papa said yes, with an express maximum budget of only 100k.
Last Wednesday, April 12, when my brother, T, took Papa out to see a 1995 Kia that they could buy for me given Papa's budget, Papa was riveted to this Toyota Vios instead. It is funny that the Kia they were intending to buy was owned by somebody who wanted this Vios, that's why he was selling the Kia to add to his funds for this Vios. But when Papa saw and test drove this Vios, he decided to get it instead, even if it was four times way above his intended budget. He paid for it in cash. Knowing how very strict and cost conscious Papa is, this in itself is already a miracle!!!
Prayers do get answered, in God's own ways, and dreams do come true.
I got the almost brand new (only 10 months used) red, spacious car I prayed for, indeed, and in just four months!!!
Thank You, God, for the Toyota Vios that has come our way!!!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Maximize your brainpower with meditation. Meditation may stimulate the growth of brain tissue and reduce cognitive decline sometimes associated with aging. In a small study, people who meditated exhibited increased thickness in brain regions involved in attention and sensory perception compared to people of the same age who did not meditate. Take a few minutes every morning and evening to calm your mind and focus your thoughts.
Meditation has long been known to affect brain wave activity. Now new research suggests it changes brain structure as well. In a small study, researchers found that long-term practitioners of a certain type of meditation had thicker brain tissue in certain areas of the brain. Thinning brain tissue has been associated with age-related cognitive dysfunction, including poor attention and sensory awareness. The research suggests meditation may be one way to fight brain aging. In addition, eating foods rich in omega-3 fats, exercising regularly to boost circulation, and engaging in mentally challenging activities -- such as learning a new language or completing crossword puzzles -- will help to keep you mentally sharp.
Meditation experience is associated with increased cortical thickness. Lazar, S. W., Kerr, C. E., Wasserman, R. H., Gray, J. R., Greve, D. N., Treadway, M. T., McGarvey, M., Quinn, B. T., Dusek, J. A., Benson, H., Rauch, S. L., Moore, C. I., Fischl, B., NeuroReport 2005 Nov 28;16(17):1893-1897.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
The concept of a radiant subtle energy and spirit underlying the physical world is almost universal. So is the idea that this energy can be harnessed for profound transformation and healing. More than two thousand years ago, the Chinese created acupuncture, a system that uses needles to influence the flow of chi through the body's energy meridians. In India mystics have been transmitting prana or shakti from master to student, changing consciousness, for at least as long. The Khalahari Kung raise num through ecstatic all-night dances, in which they perform healings and receive visions.
These and other spiritual traditions perceive subtle energy as affecting both the mind and the body. For instance, if you improve the flow of chi or shakti to a person's physical heart, that person may also feel more "open-hearted" or compassionate. If you are suffering from a liver ailment, part of the cure in Chinese acupuncture or subtle energy healing might require you to release stored-up anger so your energy can flow. If you have a hypo-active thyroid, you may need to work on speaking up for yourself to open all the energy channels.
If this all sounds too fantastical, I can relate. When I began investigating subtle energy and healing more than a decade ago, I was a skeptical journalist. I didn't know if subtle energy could exist. It was quite a shock to discover that not only did it exist, but that the energy--something I couldn't then see and scientists still can't directly measure--could nonetheless have a profound effect on my life.
The first experience I had with subtle energy didn't make me a believer. For a magazine assignment, I sat in on a healing by Barbara Brennan, a one-time NASA scientist turned energy healer. To begin she asked the 150 students in her sophomore class at the Barbara Brennan School of Healing to focus and enhance the spin of their chakras, vortexes of energy located along the spine. These chakras are said to feed energy to organs and glands in the body and also regulate our emotions, thoughts and beliefs. Looking and feeling like energy whirlpools, they bring in energy and information from the environment.
The class started, in unison, with the first chakra, located at the base of the spine and climbed to the second chakra, located at the navel, then on to the 3rd chakra at the abdomen and the 4th chakra, at the heart. But I couldn't see or feel anything. Then Brennan had everyone bring his attention to the fifth chakra. All of a sudden, my throat began burning up. I thought I was going to choke to death. Then I recalled that the fifth chakra was located at the throat. With that thought, I could breathe again. Afterwards, the teacher sitting next to me told me that the "energy" had hit a "block" in my throat. I didn't buy it.
Later, to test the theories, I tried a few sessions with a graduate of Barbara Brennan's healing school. It didn't seem like much happened and I decided my fifth session would be my last. At that appointment, the healer told me that I had an energy blockage in my throat in the shape of "quills." (Blocks in my throat, again!) Furthermore, she asserted that the quills were there because of "barbs" that had been thrown when I tried to "speak my truth." As you might imagine, this sounded ridiculous to me. I lay down on her healing table with a "show me" attitude. When she got to my neck, even though she didn't touch me, I felt the most irritating sensation. The power of suggestion, no doubt.
A week later, my brother and I got into a heated argument. Suddenly, I heard the nasty edge in his voice. "Don't ever speak to me like that again," I told him in a calm, quiet voice. Only a few days later did I recall the "quills." My brother had thrown a barb at me; this time I didn't let it lodge. The healing had worked, after all.
Since then, investigating healing for my first book, I watched many different healers and also experienced many healing sessions. I even tried healing techniques just to prove they couldn't work-only to find they did work. I also looked at the scientific record.
More than 177 controlled studies of energy healing had been done by 1998 and of those 72.9 percent found significant results. Since then, more studies with findings of significant results have been completed, including at California Pacific Medical Center in San Francisco, where the results of a study of healing and end-stage AIDS patients was so dramatic that the National Institutes of Health is currently funding two large follow-up studies. I now work as a subtle energy healer, using ancient Yogic, Tibetan and Kabbalistic principles, and also teach people to experience their own subtle energy.
You may think you can't taste, touch, feel, or smell subtle energy. But you're using your subtle energy all the time. The more conscious you become of it, the more you can use it to enhance your life, deal effectively with others, gain insights and create radiant health.
One way to start experiencing the subtle energy in your body is to try this simple exercise: Rub your hands together briskly so that you generate heat in your palms. Now bring the palm of one hand towards the back of your other hand. As you come close, do you feel a subtle resistance in your palm? That's your energy field. Or rub the palms of your hand together. Then separate your hands and slowly bring the palms towards each other. Do you feel resistance as you come close? Again, that's your energy field you're experiencing.
Another exercise that's fun and easy to do involves pairing up with a friend. Do a few jumping jacks or tai chi exercises or yoga poses to get your energy moving. Then, while your friend remains standing still, walk towards her with your palms extended. As you come close do you feel a subtle resistance or thickening in the air? That's the outer boundary of your friend's energy field.
Of course, subtle energy isn't just a force inside of us. It's permeating everything. Just think for a minute of how you feel when you walk into a loud, trendy restaurant. Now think of how your body feels when you walk into a church. Do you notice a difference in your body's reaction? That's how you are reacting to the ambient energy around you.
You can also feel other people's energies. In fact, you do it all the time. For instance, think of someone who makes you feel great every time you see them. Notice how you feel inside yourself as you think of this person. Now, compare that experience with the way you feel around someone who seems depressed. Does their energy "bring you down?" You are sensing each person's energy. Your best sensing mechanism for other people's energies is often your own body and emotions.
When we sense a person's energy, we are reacting to many subtle vibrations at once. Everything a person thinks and feels affects his or her "vibration" or range of subtle frequencies. In fact, thoughts and emotions are part of the spectrum of subtle energies. Also on the spectrum is what we often refer to as "spiritual" light: the higher, refined frequencies generated by prayers and acts of devotion, worship, meditation, selfless love and service. If you become very sensitive, you may even see a subtle light all around a person who does a lot of spiritual practice.
You can modulate your energy by watching the thoughts and emotions you experience. If you are having a negative emotion, such as "No one likes me," you can change it to "I love my Self" and you will automatically change your vibration. Or if you are feeling down or "blue," imagine yourself filled with white light. You may notice an immediate shift in your mood.
You can also learn a great deal about your energy just by noticing where you have pain in your body. For instance, if you have a problem with one or both of your legs, ask yourself if there's an area in your life where you don't feel supported. Of course, your body "language" is unique to you. Two people can have the same physical problem, but with somewhat different root issues. For instance, I once worked on rebalancing two people with torn hamstrung muscles in the same day. The man was literally "hamstrung" because he could no longer express his love for his ex-wife. The woman was "hamstrung" in expressing herself creatively.
If you tune into any pain you have in your body, you can ask it what it is trying to communicate to you. Stay in a state of openness, and just see what rises to the surface of your consciousness. Then contemplate it over the next few days, and see where it leads. Many times, one pain can have many different messages. But start with the first message you get. If your body is telling you to slow down, try slowing down. If your shoulders are telling you to not take the weight of the world--or your office--onto your self, try to follow the advice and see what happens.
If you can tune in to what your body is telling you, it will help you achieve or maintain radiant health. Likewise, watching the way the energy runs through your life may help you live in a state of ease and grace.
Diane Goldner is the author of 'How People Heal: Exploring The Scientific Basis of Subtle Energy in Healing.' She has a hands-on healing practice in New York, the Hamptons and Los Angeles and also does long-distance healing work. For more information, visit her website.