i am wallowing in all the negative emotions brought about by my recent temporary knockdown; i don't even have the energies to smile.
but perhaps, this is a good thing, just part of the normal emotional balancing that one undergoes as one grows in one's meditations and spiritual growth.
it feels a whole lot like deja vu, being taken back in time to those early post-sep months... except that this time, i am allowing my self to cry my heart out.
i didn't cry this much back then, just very misty eyes, but i stopped the tears from flowing. my chin wouldn't allow it back then.
my chin is humbler, softer now.