Friday, April 28, 2006
in my list of Intentions some four months ago, paying off the last of my credit card debt was in it. it's not exactly a debt i truly incurred for my own use (guess who incurred it for his own use, using his supplementary card to mine), but the card and account is in my name, and so, as the last vestige of a past id rather move on from fully now, i want to clear my name there too and start clean.
it was not exactly in my priority of intentions, somewhere below the priority for the car, which was even also not a top priority either (the new car was somewhere in the middle).
but last monday, after three years of numerous threatening and obnoxious demand letters from different collection agencies which i basically ignored (what could i do then, i didnt have the means to even pay the minimum amount due), i received a letter from the bank itself and a collection agency it was partnering with, in a friendlier and more helpful tone, telling me that they're offering me 50% discount off my outstanding balance due to settle my account!
what is strange for me about it is, it specifically answered two questions ive just kept in my mind for future use when i get the means to finally pay it off--- about whether id promptly receive a Certificate of Clearance from them, and whether they'd also promptly erase my name from the Negative List of the bankers' association. these were something never addressed by any of the demand letters before, and to which not many people have information on. my jaw fell as i read this new letter this time; it specifically answered these two questions, almost as if it heard what i asked only in my mind! : O
anyway, over the last 3 days, i managed to negotiate a good deal with the bank, for me to pay the 50% remaining balance after the amnesty discount is applied over a series of 6 months' installment, as i explained to them that i will get the means to pay the installments from my peace project honoraria.
it was a mutually satisfactory and very decent deal for all involved and i was already happy with it.
but, what do you know?
as the week ended, my peace project colleagues asked me if they could pay my six-months' honoraria in lumpsum this May instead of monthly, so that the amount left is entirely left to the project's operations!
heavens, yes, yes, YES!!! : )
Friday, April 14, 2006
I thought I'd want a more spacious, red one, that didn't need the maintenance headaches I was having with my old car-- that was my bottomline requirement. At that time, the Toyota Innova had just hit the market and I thought I wanted something quite like it.
So, I researched the Innova at Toyota's website and downloaded a picture of a red Innova for my desktop. Then when I'd see a Toyota Innova on the streets, I'd smile at it, as if in greeting and recognition, and say a secret prayer, "Thank You, God, for the Toyota Innova coming our way!" : ) : ) : )
This begun last December, 2005. But, over four months, it has gotten to be such a habit that even just seeing the Toyota logo anywhere automatically prompts me to smile and thank for the Toyota coming our way. : ) I wasn't in a hurry; in fact, I was having fun.
I didn't care nor worry anymore about how it will come about; I just trusted that it will, in time, when it is right.
At around the same time, my brother, T, felt sorry for my frequent car troubles, especially after he learned that the kids and I would frequently absent ourselves from school and work when the car conked out, as we couldn't afford the extra P300 a day taxi budget for commutes, in addition to the car trouble costs. He broached to Papa about helping us out with a new secondhand car, and Papa said yes, with an express maximum budget of only 100k.
Last Wednesday, April 12, when my brother, T, took Papa out to see a 1995 Kia that they could buy for me given Papa's budget, Papa was riveted to this Toyota Vios instead. It is funny that the Kia they were intending to buy was owned by somebody who wanted this Vios, that's why he was selling the Kia to add to his funds for this Vios. But when Papa saw and test drove this Vios, he decided to get it instead, even if it was four times way above his intended budget. He paid for it in cash. Knowing how very strict and cost conscious Papa is, this in itself is already a miracle!!!
Prayers do get answered, in God's own ways, and dreams do come true.
I got the almost brand new (only 10 months used) red, spacious car I prayed for, indeed, and in just four months!!!
Thank You, God, for the Toyota Vios that has come our way!!!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Maximize your brainpower with meditation. Meditation may stimulate the growth of brain tissue and reduce cognitive decline sometimes associated with aging. In a small study, people who meditated exhibited increased thickness in brain regions involved in attention and sensory perception compared to people of the same age who did not meditate. Take a few minutes every morning and evening to calm your mind and focus your thoughts.
Meditation has long been known to affect brain wave activity. Now new research suggests it changes brain structure as well. In a small study, researchers found that long-term practitioners of a certain type of meditation had thicker brain tissue in certain areas of the brain. Thinning brain tissue has been associated with age-related cognitive dysfunction, including poor attention and sensory awareness. The research suggests meditation may be one way to fight brain aging. In addition, eating foods rich in omega-3 fats, exercising regularly to boost circulation, and engaging in mentally challenging activities -- such as learning a new language or completing crossword puzzles -- will help to keep you mentally sharp.
Meditation experience is associated with increased cortical thickness. Lazar, S. W., Kerr, C. E., Wasserman, R. H., Gray, J. R., Greve, D. N., Treadway, M. T., McGarvey, M., Quinn, B. T., Dusek, J. A., Benson, H., Rauch, S. L., Moore, C. I., Fischl, B., NeuroReport 2005 Nov 28;16(17):1893-1897.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
The concept of a radiant subtle energy and spirit underlying the physical world is almost universal. So is the idea that this energy can be harnessed for profound transformation and healing. More than two thousand years ago, the Chinese created acupuncture, a system that uses needles to influence the flow of chi through the body's energy meridians. In India mystics have been transmitting prana or shakti from master to student, changing consciousness, for at least as long. The Khalahari Kung raise num through ecstatic all-night dances, in which they perform healings and receive visions.
These and other spiritual traditions perceive subtle energy as affecting both the mind and the body. For instance, if you improve the flow of chi or shakti to a person's physical heart, that person may also feel more "open-hearted" or compassionate. If you are suffering from a liver ailment, part of the cure in Chinese acupuncture or subtle energy healing might require you to release stored-up anger so your energy can flow. If you have a hypo-active thyroid, you may need to work on speaking up for yourself to open all the energy channels.
If this all sounds too fantastical, I can relate. When I began investigating subtle energy and healing more than a decade ago, I was a skeptical journalist. I didn't know if subtle energy could exist. It was quite a shock to discover that not only did it exist, but that the energy--something I couldn't then see and scientists still can't directly measure--could nonetheless have a profound effect on my life.
The first experience I had with subtle energy didn't make me a believer. For a magazine assignment, I sat in on a healing by Barbara Brennan, a one-time NASA scientist turned energy healer. To begin she asked the 150 students in her sophomore class at the Barbara Brennan School of Healing to focus and enhance the spin of their chakras, vortexes of energy located along the spine. These chakras are said to feed energy to organs and glands in the body and also regulate our emotions, thoughts and beliefs. Looking and feeling like energy whirlpools, they bring in energy and information from the environment.
The class started, in unison, with the first chakra, located at the base of the spine and climbed to the second chakra, located at the navel, then on to the 3rd chakra at the abdomen and the 4th chakra, at the heart. But I couldn't see or feel anything. Then Brennan had everyone bring his attention to the fifth chakra. All of a sudden, my throat began burning up. I thought I was going to choke to death. Then I recalled that the fifth chakra was located at the throat. With that thought, I could breathe again. Afterwards, the teacher sitting next to me told me that the "energy" had hit a "block" in my throat. I didn't buy it.
Later, to test the theories, I tried a few sessions with a graduate of Barbara Brennan's healing school. It didn't seem like much happened and I decided my fifth session would be my last. At that appointment, the healer told me that I had an energy blockage in my throat in the shape of "quills." (Blocks in my throat, again!) Furthermore, she asserted that the quills were there because of "barbs" that had been thrown when I tried to "speak my truth." As you might imagine, this sounded ridiculous to me. I lay down on her healing table with a "show me" attitude. When she got to my neck, even though she didn't touch me, I felt the most irritating sensation. The power of suggestion, no doubt.
A week later, my brother and I got into a heated argument. Suddenly, I heard the nasty edge in his voice. "Don't ever speak to me like that again," I told him in a calm, quiet voice. Only a few days later did I recall the "quills." My brother had thrown a barb at me; this time I didn't let it lodge. The healing had worked, after all.
Since then, investigating healing for my first book, I watched many different healers and also experienced many healing sessions. I even tried healing techniques just to prove they couldn't work-only to find they did work. I also looked at the scientific record.
More than 177 controlled studies of energy healing had been done by 1998 and of those 72.9 percent found significant results. Since then, more studies with findings of significant results have been completed, including at California Pacific Medical Center in San Francisco, where the results of a study of healing and end-stage AIDS patients was so dramatic that the National Institutes of Health is currently funding two large follow-up studies. I now work as a subtle energy healer, using ancient Yogic, Tibetan and Kabbalistic principles, and also teach people to experience their own subtle energy.
You may think you can't taste, touch, feel, or smell subtle energy. But you're using your subtle energy all the time. The more conscious you become of it, the more you can use it to enhance your life, deal effectively with others, gain insights and create radiant health.
One way to start experiencing the subtle energy in your body is to try this simple exercise: Rub your hands together briskly so that you generate heat in your palms. Now bring the palm of one hand towards the back of your other hand. As you come close, do you feel a subtle resistance in your palm? That's your energy field. Or rub the palms of your hand together. Then separate your hands and slowly bring the palms towards each other. Do you feel resistance as you come close? Again, that's your energy field you're experiencing.
Another exercise that's fun and easy to do involves pairing up with a friend. Do a few jumping jacks or tai chi exercises or yoga poses to get your energy moving. Then, while your friend remains standing still, walk towards her with your palms extended. As you come close do you feel a subtle resistance or thickening in the air? That's the outer boundary of your friend's energy field.
Of course, subtle energy isn't just a force inside of us. It's permeating everything. Just think for a minute of how you feel when you walk into a loud, trendy restaurant. Now think of how your body feels when you walk into a church. Do you notice a difference in your body's reaction? That's how you are reacting to the ambient energy around you.
You can also feel other people's energies. In fact, you do it all the time. For instance, think of someone who makes you feel great every time you see them. Notice how you feel inside yourself as you think of this person. Now, compare that experience with the way you feel around someone who seems depressed. Does their energy "bring you down?" You are sensing each person's energy. Your best sensing mechanism for other people's energies is often your own body and emotions.
When we sense a person's energy, we are reacting to many subtle vibrations at once. Everything a person thinks and feels affects his or her "vibration" or range of subtle frequencies. In fact, thoughts and emotions are part of the spectrum of subtle energies. Also on the spectrum is what we often refer to as "spiritual" light: the higher, refined frequencies generated by prayers and acts of devotion, worship, meditation, selfless love and service. If you become very sensitive, you may even see a subtle light all around a person who does a lot of spiritual practice.
You can modulate your energy by watching the thoughts and emotions you experience. If you are having a negative emotion, such as "No one likes me," you can change it to "I love my Self" and you will automatically change your vibration. Or if you are feeling down or "blue," imagine yourself filled with white light. You may notice an immediate shift in your mood.
You can also learn a great deal about your energy just by noticing where you have pain in your body. For instance, if you have a problem with one or both of your legs, ask yourself if there's an area in your life where you don't feel supported. Of course, your body "language" is unique to you. Two people can have the same physical problem, but with somewhat different root issues. For instance, I once worked on rebalancing two people with torn hamstrung muscles in the same day. The man was literally "hamstrung" because he could no longer express his love for his ex-wife. The woman was "hamstrung" in expressing herself creatively.
If you tune into any pain you have in your body, you can ask it what it is trying to communicate to you. Stay in a state of openness, and just see what rises to the surface of your consciousness. Then contemplate it over the next few days, and see where it leads. Many times, one pain can have many different messages. But start with the first message you get. If your body is telling you to slow down, try slowing down. If your shoulders are telling you to not take the weight of the world--or your office--onto your self, try to follow the advice and see what happens.
If you can tune in to what your body is telling you, it will help you achieve or maintain radiant health. Likewise, watching the way the energy runs through your life may help you live in a state of ease and grace.
Diane Goldner is the author of 'How People Heal: Exploring The Scientific Basis of Subtle Energy in Healing.' She has a hands-on healing practice in New York, the Hamptons and Los Angeles and also does long-distance healing work. For more information, visit her website.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
When we begin to properly nourish our bodies, an amazing transformation takes place: We begin to discover ways for nourishing all parts of ourselves. This is transformational nourishment, the process of transforming habitual, constricting patterns and behaviors into nourishing practices that encourage growth and development. Is it really possible that food can help us live fuller, more aware lives? The answer is yes! Healthy foods alone won’t enlighten you. In fact, they, too, can become an obsession. The key to transformational nourishment is awareness.
Transformational nourishment isn’t a quick-fix food program, it’s a set of tools for living an aware life. There are myriad paths for learning self-awareness, from religious traditions and faiths to yoga, mediation, and other spiritual disciplines. In general, however, the connection between food and spiritual development has not been widely explored. Most food models today tend to focus only on the physical or emotional levels, such as dieting and eating disorders. Transformational nourishment’s unique approach turns food and eating into a daily practice for becoming physically, emotionally, and spiritually aware.
The natural human inclination is to continually grow, change, and create. Even as you read this sentence, great biochemical changes are occurring within your body. Millions of cells are being created and dying, and we aren’t close to being aware of it. Growth is a constant for all levels of life, from the cellular to the cosmic. So, too, as humans, our natural state is one of growth and change. But sometimes we get stuck. In our culture, we particularly run into problems because we are living more sedentary lives, and we eat the sweet, sticky, salty, highly refined foodstuffs that perpetuate a sedentary existence. These foods also tend to trap us in places where we feel safe, secure, and resistant to change.
When we are clear about our intention of how we want to develop, the foods that propel us forward usually are the ones that we don’t crave. I’ve been a nourishment consultant for over twenty-five years and I’ve never seen a client who has addictive patterns with vegetables or lean proteins, such as tofu, fish, and organic meat. It may seem simple, but just by shifting your food consumption to move vital essence foods (vegetables, fruit, grains, lean proteins), you will feel more empowered and in touch with a deeper part of yourself.
the "real world" out there is the one that is unreal because in the higher realms of consciousness, there is no pain, lack, poverty, violence, greed, and all that is destructive of life; they belong to the lower, most primitive and basest levels of consciousness. so the "real world" that we see and experience around us is simply a manifestation of this base consciousness. our will, our idea of an "abundant" life, against God's Will for an abundant life for all of us.
we have the power to change it, if we go back "home", turn inward and reclaim our God-ness or Goddess-ness. get clear, let go of negative erroneous thoughts and conditioning, know that you are a much loved Child of God, know that God desires Abundance for you as your Birthright, desires to manifest even more Abundance through you!!!
stay in Joy, vibrate and grow to the higher realms by being the manifestation of all things Good, practicing Abundance through Loving and Giving and Forgiving, to our selves first and foremost as well as to others, affirming life in all its forms, zealously guarding our thoughts and our words, which create and re-create our feelings according to how low-level or high-level the quality of the thoughts and words are.
our feelings are simply a barometer, an indicator, of what's going on inside of us. if we are feeling bad, or low, or negative, it is simply telling us that we are either in danger, "not in alignment" with our God-Self (not being the God/Goddess that we are by being less than we are), or that we must have entertained prior erroneous and non-life affirming thoughts and words. so, we must step back from danger, get in alignment again by being, rising up to our God-Self again, or find those erroneous non-life affirming thoughts and words out and weed them out from our consciousness.
the real world is the one we create with our minds, the one we create from the higher realms of Good and Light and Love and Joy, the one that lasts. it is yet to fully manifest, even as it already seeks to manifest through some of us who are awakening to our God-Selves.
meanwhile, don't let the unreal get to you. stem it back by turning your back on it. you are made of finer, stronger, better stuff than the unreal world created by small minds is! go back to your own God-Selfhood and reclaim your Power from within!
Monday, April 03, 2006
Meditation on the Power of the Spoken Word
(Speak this each day in the morning, and wonderful things will begin happening for you.)
When I decree a thing, I know that it is so because the Great I AM Presence within me is All-Powerful and Unlimited. And so I listen to my Intuition, the Still Small Voice, the Divine Guidance of God within. Beloved Great Soul Being that I AM, Mighty I AM Presence, let me now express Your Divine Idea and Purpose in my mind, body, and affairs. I know that my I AM Presence is more than equal to every situation, for God is Love and Law. I start towards my Victory and Success by being glad I am myself, I forgive others, I forgive myself, and I know I am forgiven. In all my ways I acknowledge You, the Great I AM Presence of God within, and know that You will make plain my paths. I AM a good receiver and I prepare for all my blessings. I rejoice and give thanks, and know it will come to pass.
I know that my I AM Presence is All Powerful, and so I watch my thoughts, feelings, and words with all diligence. I overcome doubt, fear, and negative vibrations. Limitation is unreal and leaves no stain. I AM now immune to all hurt and resentment, for my Poise is built upon the Rock of the Christ Spirit, the Great I AM Presence of God within. I withdraw all Power from limitation and it is powerless to hurt. My Trust and Faith are strong in this I AM Presence and the Power of the Light. I take it easy and see my ever present Freedom and Salvation. I learn from the little things, they prepare me for greater Trust in bigger things.
I AM strong, I AM: fearless. My word is my wand filled with Magic and Power. The Great I AM Presence is my Light and Victory in all things. In whom shall I fear? To all negative thoughts I answer: my Supply comes from God and now appears like mushrooms overnight. God appreciates me, therefore man appreciates me. Nothing can interfere with my Divinely Designed Success. The Invincible Power of my Mighty I AM Presence sweeps before me, and I ride Its Waves into my Promised Land. I only desire that which God desires through me, and I claim that which is mine by Divine Right and under Grace in a
I change my world by changing my thoughts and my vibrations. I AM a Master workperson: my tools are my thoughts, feelings, and words: I build according to Divine Plan. With all my receiving I ask that I also get the Understanding of the working of Spiritual Law. I AM practicing the Law of Laws: I do unto others as I would have them do unto me. I have the Single Eye that sees only Good in all people and in all circumstances. I am undisturbed by appearances. I do not allow selfishness or personal will to bring defeat or failure. I know that unless the Great I AM Presence “Builds the house” that my labors are in vain. And so I see myself bathed daily in the Great Violet and White Light of the Christ Spirit, and It dissolves all appearance of lack, loss, limitation, or disease.
Peace is within my consciousness. The years the emotions have eaten are restored to me. I know that whatever I desire or require is already on my pathway. My Understanding brings me Peace. I have Loving Dominion over my thoughts and words. I learn to let God: to get out of His way so He can harmonize and adjust the situations, If I experience any doubt, I call on the Law of Forgiveness and the Violet Flame, and I do something to show my Faith for Faith without works is dead. My active Faith keeps me in touch with God and impresses my Subconscious with Expectancy. My Intuition is my unerring guide: I practice It in little things and I learn to trust It in bigger things. The Great I AM Presence of God goes before me each day and all battles are won. Peace is within my consciousness and Prosperity within my being, I have great peace because I love Thy Law, and nothing shall offend me. I practice the Law of Nonresistance: I resist not limitation, but overcome limitation with Good.
By my words I AM justified. I do not joke destructively. I do not speak while angry or resentful, because whatever I speak, I attract. God's Inexhaustible Energy is released through me by my Goodwill. I do not allow resentment and intolerance to rob me of my Power. I watch my thoughts and I watch my words. I direct God's Dynamic Force within to heal, bless, and prosper: to Waves of Good to the whole world. I feel Rich and I attract riches, I feel Successful and I attract success, I feel Love and I attract love. I picture in my mind only Good and know that is the Land I am given. I cultivate the feeling that Miracles and Wonders are coming to pass: I cultivate a Success Expectancy. I am an awakened being who knows only one Power: God; and one condition: Good. I do not look back on “hard” times, but I give thanks for the dawn of each new day, and look forward to the joyful and miraculous events of the day. All that I desire or require is already on my pathway and I am wide awake to manifest it. The walls of lack and delay now crumble away, and I enter into my Promised Land under Grace in a
In nothing am I anxious; I AM not fearful. I believe in God's Power and that all things are possible. And in everything in Reverence, Gratitude, and Thanksgiving I let my desires and requests be made known unto my Beloved Great Soul Being, the Great I AM Presence of God within. I follow my intuitive leads in spending, for my Supply comes from God. I have the Spiritual Realization of doing the things I desire --the feeling that I am already there. I AM in its vibration. My Vision allows me to see clearly where I am going. I establish the Vibration of Assurance. I know that whatsoever I ask of the Great I AM Presence, it will be given to me. My active Faith and Expectancy keep the machinery of asking and receiving in Perfect Divine Order. When I pray, I believe I have it; in nothing am I anxious; I stand still and see the Salvation of God; I do not limit my Beloved Great Soul Being, the Great I AM Presence. My Realization is Manifestation. I speak and decree with Authority and Love, Praise and Thanksgiving. I am nonresistant, poised, and peaceful, expecting Good to come to pass. I AM the receiver, God is the Giver: I allow Him to create His Own Channels. I say, “If this is according to Divine Plan, then I receive it with Praise and Thanksgiving; if not, then I ask for its equivalent or something better.” I am careful not to force anything not Divinely planned. I put those I love under the Law of Divine Protection. I prepare for my blessing and follow my intuitive leads. I now give God the right of way.
I love and praise God, for His Love and Mercy endures forever. I stand still and let God run the situation. I face each day and the lions of lack, fear, limitation, or dread, knowing that God goes before me and all battles are won. It is Heaven to be unafraid and to live in the Now. By my words of Truth I make new my mind, body, and affairs. My Faith gives me a sublime assurance of my good. My Unlimited Supply is waiting to be released by my Faith and my spoken word. As Jesus taught, I harness and direct my thoughts. My imagination is the workshop. I transmute fear into Faith, for Faith registers ideas in my Subconscious from whence they objectify and become. I AM Successful and Happy, Poised and Balanced, in Rhythm and Harmony. I trust God.
I change my words and I change my world. My affirmations build constructive ideas in consciousness. My faith creates Expectancy. I do unto others as I would be done by, for any violation of the Law of Laws causes a short circuit. God is Immutable Law and His principles are unchanging. His Divine Ideas are Immutable, not subject to change. The Divine Plan of my life is a Perfect Idea of God and cannot be spoiled in any way. I know the Truth and the Truth gives me Freedom. I ask believing and know I shall receive. I am interesting to people because I am interested in something; I AM enthusiastic. I transmute all failure into Success, injustice to Justice, unforgiveness to Forgiveness, and resentment to Love. I: know that with God all things are possible, and so with Divine Enthusiasm, I bless what I have and look with Wonder and Thanksgiving at its increase.
There is no limitation. There is no absence of Life, Substance, or Intelligence anywhere. Pain, sickness, poverty, old age, and death cannot master me, for they are unreal. There is nothing in all the Universe for me to fear, for greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world. God is all Life, Love, Intelligence, Substance, Omnipotence, Omniscience, and Omnipresence. I am a Child, a much loved Manifestation of God, and every moment His Life, Love, Wisdom, and Power flow into and through me. I AM one with God and am governed by His Laws. God, manifest as Life, Wisdom, and Power is now flowing into my entire being and out through me to the external world. I AM Spirit, Perfect, Holy, and Harmonious. Nothing can hurt me or make me sick or afraid, for Spirit is God and God cannot be hurt or made sick or afraid. I manifest my Real Self through this body now. God works in me to will and to do whatsoever He wishes me to do, and He cannot fail.
Beloved Great I AM Presence, let Thy Will be done in me. Let Thy Life flow through me anew while I wait. You are the Life within me. You are the Answer to all my questions. You abide in me, You have all Power, You are the Answer to all that I desire. Radiate Thyself Now from the center of my being. Fulfill Your Highest Thought in me now.
So Be it!
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