when the student is ready, the teacher will come.
and usually, for me, more than anything else, the teacher usually comes in the form of books.
i was at the nearby mall with the kids yesterday, because thea needed to buy some supplies for her school projects. and i was just standing by a book display waiting for her to finish, even as i also waited for paolo who asked to run upstairs for a quick peek at the toy section.
i was standing there watching people, and then my eyes strayed to the books and the very big sign calling out to me -- Books for P50 Each Only! Right next to it was a magazine rack with the sign -- Magazines, P60 Each, and it amused me to note how books can be cheaper than magazines now.
the books were old and appeared a bit used, but they were good books, some of them classics even, in mostly hardbound copies. so i started browsing... and, by the time, the kids came up to me, ready to go home, i had already chosen 4 books to buy, with the following blurbs--
1. The Passionate Life-- Stages of Loving, by Sam Keen: "... a needed, well-written and most engaging slap in the face of the 'Playboy philosophy'. its trivialization of the erotic and its nearly exclusive emphasis on sexual proficiency as the definition of love; ... this wise and beautiful essay breathes new life into our thinking about love and sexuality. Sam Keen wants us to regard eros as an impulse or energy that links us to the whole web of life rather than a strictly sexual-romantic thing..."
2. Living In the Light, by Shakti Gawain: "... shows us a new way of life--becoming 'a channel for the creative power of the universe'. The key is in learning to listen to your intuition, and to act on it at all times, even at the risk of going against old patterns, expectations and belief systems."
3. The All-True Travels and Adventures of Liddie Newton, by Jane Smiley: "... The richly entertaining saga of a woman whom Huck Finn would have been proud to claim as his big sister... Liddie is a splendid creation."
4. The Age of Grief, by Jane Smiley: " (This) luminous novella explores the vicissitudes of love, friendship, and marriage with all the compassion and insight that have come to be expected from (this) Pulitzer Prize-winning author..."
***
in my research classes, we have a tool called "mind mapping" in trying to understand where a person is at at the very precise moment their minds are being mapped.
if the books i have just attracted (have become attracted to) now are an any indication, the blurbs might as well reveal where my mind is at now, too-- and the lessons i am ready to learn, or re-learn...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Nick Nolte
i just got this from a Belief.net subscription email, and i love how Nick Nolte explains the stuff in simple, understandable terms.... exactly what ive been growing into and discovering lately...
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
getting out of my way
i must be getting better at this stuff, basically just getting out of my way.
i was lying in bed last night, on my tummy, drawing my budget again for the next period. i thank God that, compared to previous years at this time of year (school opening season with all the school opening expenses), i am able to meet my obligations, and even have something more to settle old standing ones. still, after drawing my budget, though, i realized that there were two things i will have to postpone for a while, as we didn't have the funds for them-- a complete car tune-up (just to get the new car on a good start) and new clothes for the kids and i (they're outgrowing theirs, thea is even wearing mine now, and my old clothes are ... well... really old, as in circa married days and even pre-married days! a lifetime ago...).
anyway, as what usually happens when i discover that my current and expected funds are not enough to cover all foresseen needs, i start getting anxious, trying to brainstorm now solutions for either how i could generate more and/or how we could live with less.
i actually started doing that, this time, marking a new page on my notebook, "Solutions", when i remembered Anisa Aven's manifesting template (you submit a manifesting story to her, she sends you this template). which basically says that manifesting is basically a three-step process: create your Intent, vibrate with your Intent (through Gratitude, faith, positive expectancy, inspired action preparing to receive your Intent), and receive your Intent. but along the way, we usually get sidetracked on a detour around and through our blocks (fear, doubt, anxiety, negative emotions and thoughts, etc.) and it is this that we need practice working through by clearing them.
for last night, though, with this remembrance and recognition, i just simply decided to not entertain the sprouting anxiety, doubts and fears. i actually wrote in my notebook with a big circle and a big star and a big arrow-- "This is for God/the Universe to work on. I will just create the space, and watch and wait."
after writing that, i went to sleep (as sleep is an effective antidote for me in chasing anxieties and blues away) at 630 pm, while waiting for dinner.
i must've overslept though, as i was only awakened by thea because of a phone call.
it was my brother, T, who shared good news-- mama's tax refund of $5000 had just come through and mama said it was to be divided among T, our sister and i!!!
oohhh wowwww.....
how faster things manifest when we are cleared of all the blocks, huh?!!!
even now, i am still sooooo amazed.
i was lying in bed last night, on my tummy, drawing my budget again for the next period. i thank God that, compared to previous years at this time of year (school opening season with all the school opening expenses), i am able to meet my obligations, and even have something more to settle old standing ones. still, after drawing my budget, though, i realized that there were two things i will have to postpone for a while, as we didn't have the funds for them-- a complete car tune-up (just to get the new car on a good start) and new clothes for the kids and i (they're outgrowing theirs, thea is even wearing mine now, and my old clothes are ... well... really old, as in circa married days and even pre-married days! a lifetime ago...).
anyway, as what usually happens when i discover that my current and expected funds are not enough to cover all foresseen needs, i start getting anxious, trying to brainstorm now solutions for either how i could generate more and/or how we could live with less.
i actually started doing that, this time, marking a new page on my notebook, "Solutions", when i remembered Anisa Aven's manifesting template (you submit a manifesting story to her, she sends you this template). which basically says that manifesting is basically a three-step process: create your Intent, vibrate with your Intent (through Gratitude, faith, positive expectancy, inspired action preparing to receive your Intent), and receive your Intent. but along the way, we usually get sidetracked on a detour around and through our blocks (fear, doubt, anxiety, negative emotions and thoughts, etc.) and it is this that we need practice working through by clearing them.
for last night, though, with this remembrance and recognition, i just simply decided to not entertain the sprouting anxiety, doubts and fears. i actually wrote in my notebook with a big circle and a big star and a big arrow-- "This is for God/the Universe to work on. I will just create the space, and watch and wait."
after writing that, i went to sleep (as sleep is an effective antidote for me in chasing anxieties and blues away) at 630 pm, while waiting for dinner.
i must've overslept though, as i was only awakened by thea because of a phone call.
it was my brother, T, who shared good news-- mama's tax refund of $5000 had just come through and mama said it was to be divided among T, our sister and i!!!
oohhh wowwww.....
how faster things manifest when we are cleared of all the blocks, huh?!!!
even now, i am still sooooo amazed.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Found Abudance log
when i re-started my regular meditations last monday, i also started this "Found Abundance" log, going by the manifesting principle of paying attention to your Intentions manifesting by logging any and all signs of their manifesting, even in little bits and increments, even if they're not manifesting in the exact form you intended, so that you help the manifesting along instead of blocking it by doubting or fearing they're not happening at all. in short, it's actually Gratitude in action, and more scientifically this time. : )
i've created it in Word and placed a shortcut to it on my desktop so i can quickly and easily access it to review it and add to it each time.
so here is a copy of my "Found Abundance" log so far--
i've created it in Word and placed a shortcut to it on my desktop so i can quickly and easily access it to review it and add to it each time.
so here is a copy of my "Found Abundance" log so far--
Found Abundance!
Eternal Thank Yous!
- my life, my mind, my body, my heart, my will, my talents, my experiences and lessons so far
- my children
- our good health
- our happy and safe home
- the love of our families and friends
- the love of J, and the lesser loves and lessons that came before
- our school
- my work
- my peace work
- good food
- comfortable shelter
- good clothes and shoes
- opportunities to grow and rise up to our highest potentials
- Life!
As of Tuesday, May 09, 2006 –
-
- Citibank amnesty program and surprisingly pleasant communications all throughout the negotiations
- P14,000 Pag-IBIG automatic credits to our mortgage, lessening the amount I have to update
- P1000 Iyas creative writing workshop surprise honorarium for my documenting it
- Able to meet budget at Palmas
- Able to meet budget this period/cycle without borrowing from others
- LG and WB gracefully waiting for me to finish my writing projects with them, so i can be paid
- the chance to earn extra (and develop further my speaking/training career for future income streams) from the Basic Communication Skills teaching opportunity
As of Thursday, May 11, 2006 –
- J‘s $40 arriving quicker than expected, one day only instead of two days!
- Mrs. S told me I have honoraria for catalogue updating, even if it’s my half summer load!
- A approved my enrolling at TRANSCEND Global Univeristy for online PJ course, tuition to be taken from Project funds’ staff development budget!
- When I get paid from the Basic Communication Skills training, and in addition to my projected savings of 10k from TBS commission, I will have already covered two months of my Citibank monthly 12k payables to fully settle my account with them by November!
for all the Blessings we have received,
for all the Blessings we are receiving,
and all the Blessings coming our way!!!
Friday, April 28, 2006
Quickening
im not over the excitement of my new car manifesting so soon yet, and here comes another Intent manifesting!
in my list of Intentions some four months ago, paying off the last of my credit card debt was in it. it's not exactly a debt i truly incurred for my own use (guess who incurred it for his own use, using his supplementary card to mine), but the card and account is in my name, and so, as the last vestige of a past id rather move on from fully now, i want to clear my name there too and start clean.
it was not exactly in my priority of intentions, somewhere below the priority for the car, which was even also not a top priority either (the new car was somewhere in the middle).
but last monday, after three years of numerous threatening and obnoxious demand letters from different collection agencies which i basically ignored (what could i do then, i didnt have the means to even pay the minimum amount due), i received a letter from the bank itself and a collection agency it was partnering with, in a friendlier and more helpful tone, telling me that they're offering me 50% discount off my outstanding balance due to settle my account!
what is strange for me about it is, it specifically answered two questions ive just kept in my mind for future use when i get the means to finally pay it off--- about whether id promptly receive a Certificate of Clearance from them, and whether they'd also promptly erase my name from the Negative List of the bankers' association. these were something never addressed by any of the demand letters before, and to which not many people have information on. my jaw fell as i read this new letter this time; it specifically answered these two questions, almost as if it heard what i asked only in my mind! : O
anyway, over the last 3 days, i managed to negotiate a good deal with the bank, for me to pay the 50% remaining balance after the amnesty discount is applied over a series of 6 months' installment, as i explained to them that i will get the means to pay the installments from my peace project honoraria.
it was a mutually satisfactory and very decent deal for all involved and i was already happy with it.
but, what do you know?
as the week ended, my peace project colleagues asked me if they could pay my six-months' honoraria in lumpsum this May instead of monthly, so that the amount left is entirely left to the project's operations!
heavens, yes, yes, YES!!! : )
in my list of Intentions some four months ago, paying off the last of my credit card debt was in it. it's not exactly a debt i truly incurred for my own use (guess who incurred it for his own use, using his supplementary card to mine), but the card and account is in my name, and so, as the last vestige of a past id rather move on from fully now, i want to clear my name there too and start clean.
it was not exactly in my priority of intentions, somewhere below the priority for the car, which was even also not a top priority either (the new car was somewhere in the middle).
but last monday, after three years of numerous threatening and obnoxious demand letters from different collection agencies which i basically ignored (what could i do then, i didnt have the means to even pay the minimum amount due), i received a letter from the bank itself and a collection agency it was partnering with, in a friendlier and more helpful tone, telling me that they're offering me 50% discount off my outstanding balance due to settle my account!
what is strange for me about it is, it specifically answered two questions ive just kept in my mind for future use when i get the means to finally pay it off--- about whether id promptly receive a Certificate of Clearance from them, and whether they'd also promptly erase my name from the Negative List of the bankers' association. these were something never addressed by any of the demand letters before, and to which not many people have information on. my jaw fell as i read this new letter this time; it specifically answered these two questions, almost as if it heard what i asked only in my mind! : O
anyway, over the last 3 days, i managed to negotiate a good deal with the bank, for me to pay the 50% remaining balance after the amnesty discount is applied over a series of 6 months' installment, as i explained to them that i will get the means to pay the installments from my peace project honoraria.
it was a mutually satisfactory and very decent deal for all involved and i was already happy with it.
but, what do you know?
as the week ended, my peace project colleagues asked me if they could pay my six-months' honoraria in lumpsum this May instead of monthly, so that the amount left is entirely left to the project's operations!
heavens, yes, yes, YES!!! : )
Friday, April 14, 2006
How Our Vios Came to Us -- My First Major Manifesting Triumph!!!
When our old 1977 Mitsubishi Lancer started conking out on us late last year, I started seriously praying and manifesting for a new car.
I thought I'd want a more spacious, red one, that didn't need the maintenance headaches I was having with my old car-- that was my bottomline requirement. At that time, the Toyota Innova had just hit the market and I thought I wanted something quite like it.
So, I researched the Innova at Toyota's website and downloaded a picture of a red Innova for my desktop. Then when I'd see a Toyota Innova on the streets, I'd smile at it, as if in greeting and recognition, and say a secret prayer, "Thank You, God, for the Toyota Innova coming our way!" : ) : ) : )
This begun last December, 2005. But, over four months, it has gotten to be such a habit that even just seeing the Toyota logo anywhere automatically prompts me to smile and thank for the Toyota coming our way. : ) I wasn't in a hurry; in fact, I was having fun.
I didn't care nor worry anymore about how it will come about; I just trusted that it will, in time, when it is right.
At around the same time, my brother, T, felt sorry for my frequent car troubles, especially after he learned that the kids and I would frequently absent ourselves from school and work when the car conked out, as we couldn't afford the extra P300 a day taxi budget for commutes, in addition to the car trouble costs. He broached to Papa about helping us out with a new secondhand car, and Papa said yes, with an express maximum budget of only 100k.
Last Wednesday, April 12, when my brother, T, took Papa out to see a 1995 Kia that they could buy for me given Papa's budget, Papa was riveted to this Toyota Vios instead. It is funny that the Kia they were intending to buy was owned by somebody who wanted this Vios, that's why he was selling the Kia to add to his funds for this Vios. But when Papa saw and test drove this Vios, he decided to get it instead, even if it was four times way above his intended budget. He paid for it in cash. Knowing how very strict and cost conscious Papa is, this in itself is already a miracle!!!
Prayers do get answered, in God's own ways, and dreams do come true.
I got the almost brand new (only 10 months used) red, spacious car I prayed for, indeed, and in just four months!!!
Thank You, God, for the Toyota Vios that has come our way!!!
I thought I'd want a more spacious, red one, that didn't need the maintenance headaches I was having with my old car-- that was my bottomline requirement. At that time, the Toyota Innova had just hit the market and I thought I wanted something quite like it.
So, I researched the Innova at Toyota's website and downloaded a picture of a red Innova for my desktop. Then when I'd see a Toyota Innova on the streets, I'd smile at it, as if in greeting and recognition, and say a secret prayer, "Thank You, God, for the Toyota Innova coming our way!" : ) : ) : )
This begun last December, 2005. But, over four months, it has gotten to be such a habit that even just seeing the Toyota logo anywhere automatically prompts me to smile and thank for the Toyota coming our way. : ) I wasn't in a hurry; in fact, I was having fun.
I didn't care nor worry anymore about how it will come about; I just trusted that it will, in time, when it is right.
At around the same time, my brother, T, felt sorry for my frequent car troubles, especially after he learned that the kids and I would frequently absent ourselves from school and work when the car conked out, as we couldn't afford the extra P300 a day taxi budget for commutes, in addition to the car trouble costs. He broached to Papa about helping us out with a new secondhand car, and Papa said yes, with an express maximum budget of only 100k.
Last Wednesday, April 12, when my brother, T, took Papa out to see a 1995 Kia that they could buy for me given Papa's budget, Papa was riveted to this Toyota Vios instead. It is funny that the Kia they were intending to buy was owned by somebody who wanted this Vios, that's why he was selling the Kia to add to his funds for this Vios. But when Papa saw and test drove this Vios, he decided to get it instead, even if it was four times way above his intended budget. He paid for it in cash. Knowing how very strict and cost conscious Papa is, this in itself is already a miracle!!!
Prayers do get answered, in God's own ways, and dreams do come true.
I got the almost brand new (only 10 months used) red, spacious car I prayed for, indeed, and in just four months!!!
Thank You, God, for the Toyota Vios that has come our way!!!
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