ive been very good these days, doing my meditations and reaping the benefits by working with focus and incredible energies from as early as 4am straight to as late as 11pm! as a result, ive been able to accomplish much, ticking off items from my To Do list in an almost regular, rhythmic pattern.
tuesday and thursday, we were supposed to have our comprehensive exams in our MA class. tuesday, we had questions in five subjects, for which we were given 2 hours per subject to answer; i answered everything in 6 hours. well... also because i disciplined and timed my self so i could finish it by 2pm, as i still had my students' thesis defense to attend to by 3pm. today, we had four subjects to answer for the whole day; i surprised my self by answering everything to my satisfaction in just two hours! : O
beyond the compre, ive been very efficient too, with the butterfly and export biz, my classes and lessons and my students grades, on top of being a good mom and person... : ) without feeling tired or put out or resentful about all the time and energies a lot of things are taking from me, like i used to feel before.
in short, im "in my zone" at last! : )
but today, my fuse must be running short. i haven't meditated for 3 days, too, so that must account for my vulnerability again. (somehow, regular meditation insulates me from all the usual stresses, and i am able to maintain my equananimity...)
in the middle of attending to my students' thesis defense, i get a text from my sister who forwarded to me a text message from our cousin in manila, about how her father, our beloved uncle, has suddenly suffered a stroke and is now in critical condition as the family is considering brain surgery...
then, upon going home, the car kept stopping again. it started stopping at intersections earlier today around noon, when i have the aircon on full blast and the car runs idle. i fetched paolo from his cousins' and his cousin went home with us for a sleepover. on the way, we stopped by the mechanic to warn him of my trouble, but the mechanic thought the car could still last for another day, just until i finish the week, before i bring it back to him.
so paolo and redd and i stopped by the mall to shop for the kids' snack items for the sleepover and for the long weekend, now that they're on summer vacation. i made a very conscious effort to stick to my budget, calculating and recalculating each time i put a new item into the cart, that by the time i was at the counter, i had a minor throbbing headache.
and then, just as i started the car to go home, a queer burning smell wrapped us all inside the car. ive never prayed so hard for the car to last until we get home!
we did get home okay, but still with the burning smell. so i contacted the mechanic now to tow it off by tomorrow morning. that means paolo and i ride the public commute again, which is two rides to school and two rides back. sigh.
i felt so frustrated i wanted to burst into tears. ive been soooo good-- but now, this! ... but then i also remembered that the mechanic mentioned he had two secondhand cars to show to papa... and how i encouraged him to do so, soon. i texted my brother, tope, to tell papa about my car trouble again and also told him to expect the mechanic with the secondhand cars for sale. tope was good, saying he'll take care of it by tomorrow. thank God!
all the time, i kept repeating to my self-- "be good to me, ooh be good to me, dear heart!" i realized how easy it was to bring all the good feelings and consciousness ive built up for the past few days down again, with just entertaining little self-critical thoughts when things seem to be going wrong like this.
but i was more successful this time. the Silva affirmation does work when you need it--"negative thoughts, negative suggestions, have no influence over me at any level of mind." the energies built up by the momentum of my past meditations, with Silva, the Holosync demo, and Jody Sachse's HAV1 music, helped, too.
still, i am reminded to get back to my meditations again. today just emphasized to me how i need to strengthen my self with my meditations as often as i can, so the world can't get to me, like it almost did again today, for good.
God help, and God bless!
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
another quote, another day
And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
- Anais Nin
- Anais Nin
Create Your Own Miracles
Eight steps to bringing wonderful experiences into your life
By Michael C. Rann and Elizabeth Rann Arrott
By Michael C. Rann and Elizabeth Rann Arrott
"Are there really miracles?" Yes, of course, there are. All of us have heard of miracles in the form of physical healings that cannot be explained by medical science. There are also miracles when the perfect solution presents itself at just the right time. There are miracles when some action taken by a person puts him or her in just the right place and results in a greater good than ever seemed possible. There are miracles in finding the perfect job, the perfect mate, and/or money when it's most needed.
Miracles happen through natural and normal circumstances, and the "new science" of quantum physics is proving that we are--every one of us--already wired for miracles. The reality is that every one of us can consciously take control and work to create a miracle or miracles in our lives. We are not victims of a random existence in a confusing and possibly hostile world. Life is for us, not against us. Not only is it possible to experience a dramatic healing or find the perfect solution to our problems, but it's also possible to express the dream or desire that we haven't dared pursue up to now and to learn how to bring such wonderful experiences into our lives more often.
To help get you started on the path of creating your own miracle, here are eight simple steps...
Be very clear.
You need to be very clear about the miracle you desire - about the good you want in your world. As you clearly visualize or imagine your miracle, focus only on the end result of what you want, not the means by which it comes about. Let the "how" be up to the Infinite Intelligence that's working for you in response to your thinking.
Expect the best.
We tend to attract that which we love, fear, or steadily expect. So expect the best, even when negative circumstances appear--in fact, especially when they appear. When we expect less than what we want, we get less than what we want. Remind yourself that you do deserve the good you desire. You deserve it by the right of your very existence. Consciously and consistently expect that everything is working to your greatest and highest good.
Let go of fear.
Fear is faith in something negative. Be watchful about your thinking. Your thoughts magnetically attract others like themselves. When you think negatively, your mind will go on a stream-of-consciousness journey into all sorts of related realms of negativity until you consciously stop yourself. All of this will block your miracle. Of course, you can't eliminate every single negative thought for the rest of your life. But all you need is 51% faith and your life will begin to turn in the right direction. When you realize this truth, you will begin to feel empowered, and your faith will become more and more self-generating.
Open your mind to all possibilities.
When we open to a greater flow of Universal Power and Intelligence in our world, we also need to let go of the way we want it. Although miracles always unfold in a very natural manner, they often come through unexpected channels. Whenever we hold tight, mentally or physically, to having things unfold "our way," we run the risk of delaying our good, diminishing it or even blocking it all together. "What" is up to you. "How" is up to Spirit.
See yourself as you want to be.
If you desire health, you need to see yourself healthy and filled with energy and enthusiasm for life. If you desire abundance, you need to see yourself enjoying an abundant lifestyle. And so forth. This does not mean living in a state of denial. On the contrary, you are clear about the facts of your present situation and handle what needs to be handled. But while you are doing all of this, your thinking about where you are headed is focused on what you want, not on what you don't want or where you are today.
Keep the power.
Don't talk about it. Keep your miracle secret. To share it prematurely is to dissipate some of the Power of your idea. Further, a negative or envious person will contribute a certain amount of negative energy, either spoken or unspoken, around your idea. The integrity of the relationship between you and Spirit with respect to the unfoldment of your miracle must not be violated. Wait until it is absolutely necessary to share your idea in order for it to continue unfolding. Even then, share as little as possible with as few people as possible.
Do what needs to be done by you.
Through the Law of Attraction, many good things move into our lives, apparently unbidden. But almost always, there are things that you need to do and choices you need to make. When you are very clear about what it is you want or need, your mind becomes calm and focused. This, in turn, provides a clear channel for the guidance and direction you need in making your choices and decisions about what to do--whether it's choosing the right doctor or taking the right job.
Pray. Pray often. Prayer works.
Prayer is effective whether we're praying for ourselves, praying for others, or being prayed for by others. You don't have to be religious for your prayers to be effective. A few suggestions:
- Pray at a time and in a quiet place where you won't be disturbed.
- Allow yourself to feel empathy, love, and compassion for yourself or for whomever you are praying.
- Pray with a complete expectation that your prayer is being answered and that the desired result is right now in the process of manifestation.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
today's quote
If you take a single step toward positive change, that divine energy will take a hundred steps toward you. New worlds and unbelievable possibilities will open up for you. The synchronicities that will begin appearing in your life will become a source of delight and amazement.
-Joan Borysenko
sponsoring thoughts and my secret garden
a sponsoring error thought snuck up on me last night, and somehow deflated my balloon a bit, until i arrested it by falling asleep instead.
i wake up now and that's the first thing i think of-- how our most wonderful day yesterday, the kids and i, was ruined for me at the end of it by a sponsoring error thought, which led to more error thoughts.
i started the day by waking up at dawn, as usual, when the kids are asleep, and i have the quiet house all to my own, working on my Peace Psychology assignment, which i promised my professor id submit by noon yesterday.
oohhhh the working was good, the intellectual juices flowing. i put on the headphones and listened to HAV1 music in the background even as i focused on my assignment. i submitted my assignment by 11:30a.m., and feeling proud and very satisfied for having done such quality work, according to my very high standards too.
in between, i brought paolo to his taekwondo class, then came to pick him up again after i finished my assignment.
bea and i met him at the mall going down the stairs and complaining of a headache (again). that concerned me; he's been having a runny nose and cough for a week now, despite the medicines ive been giving him. id like to think that his headaches are caused by a stuffy nose, with the phlegm sort of stuck somewhere higher up in his nose, but now im not so sure.
he did ask for ice cream, though, to feel better, and i gave in. he had his ice cream but on the drive home, he fell asleep holding his ice cream.
anyway, when we arrived home i told him he'd better take paracetamol and go to bed. if he doesnt feel better by 2pm, we'd have to forego his taekwondo promotion test in the afternoon.
he did fall asleep, and i took a nap along with him.
at 2pm, he woke me up saying he felt much better. just to be sure, i said, go take a shower so you will be fresh and renewed for your taekwondo test.
i woke up 30 minutes later with the kids all dressed up and paolo back to his usual hyper, talkative self.
so we went to his taekwondo promotion.
the girls had fun taking turns taking pictures of him and each other and me. i let them be and just watched, savoring the mental break, until i do my next assignment in Religious and Ethical Perspectives on Peace, due today.
from then on, it was good again. paolo did very well in his taekwondo test and is now at high yellow belt level. then i treated the kids to a celebratory early dinner at Jollibee's and i was gratified to see paolo eating so well, for a change. a tiny, nagging worry crept up, though, when paolo used the small towel we brought along to cover himself up, because he said he was feeling cold from the aircon.
after the meal, we went to the nearby mall, and paolo asked if he could buy a Playstation 2 cd, for which he would repay me later at home from his savings. i mulled a moment, rearranging my budget in my mind, but then thea quickly joined and told me i don't have to pay her back the 2500 i still owe her from her Ipod target savings, as she has changed her mind anyway and don't have any plans on buying other things for her self now, but could we buy Paolo his cd now, as well as another one for her please?
that made me smile; how the kids help me think through my budget and try to make things easier for me. they are such wonderful loving thoughtful young human beings, and i am so proud of them and feel blessed by them.
so they had fun picking out their cds, while bea asked for a cookie lollipop for her self. and so we had a wonderful time again.
but on the way home, i was telling paolo that maybe we should take him to the doctor today, for a check up just to make sure. and paolo agreed.
but quietly, i ruminated at how it will wreck my budget now: a simple trip would take at least P500. i foresaw taking that out of what would have been bea's art lesson budget of 2000 come summer...
and then, the sponsoring thoughts, which were more like instant wordless thoughts than actually worded, conscious thoughts--
- ooh, bea won't be able to take her art lessons after all! i so wanted for her to have this now, as she's always the one left behind at home when paolo and thea have their lessons and all!
- maybe i'll just ask bea now that we'll buy her an inexpensive P300 art kit, to make up for it (and she'll surely say yes), so that frees up also the rest of the 2k budget for me to use for other things at home?
- oh god, here we go again, feeling constrained and tight, i hate it!
- i hate it when things don't go the way i planned them to be;
- isn't that nice, being the control freak again, huh?
- maybe it's really better for me not to be budgetting and sticking strictly to any budget at all; we've seemed to manage fine enough without them, and i feel better too, for having not to worry!
- let God and the Universe take care of us; God always provides; there's always more where these come from!
- ohhh my, isn't that mighty irresponsible of you, to throw away budgetting just so you can feel better and not worry?!!!
and so, those series of thoughts and arguments with my self, which occurred in only a few seconds, suddenly made me feel quite glum and blue and worrying again, worrying that there is not enough out there to go around with, and going back to negative, constricting scarcity mentality again.
how vulnerable i still am, huh, despite all my work.
but, at least, i can quickly trace them now, these sponsoring error thoughts.
still, one must always be on guard.
i see my mind now as a garden i am tending, and which is starting to bloom and bear beautiful fruit, without the weeds at last.
but, like the garden in The Secret Garden, i am learning that i must pay attention to it, pay loving and faithful attention in taking care of it, nurturing it, never letting any single stray weed even sprout, or it will just quickly bring down all the beautiful things that i have grown and built up so far.
P.S.
hmmm... look what i just got from my HappyNews.com subscription email --
http://www.happynews.com/news/3242006/be-well-stay-happy.htm
an interesting, synchronistic rejoinder to what i have just experienced and learned from!
i wake up now and that's the first thing i think of-- how our most wonderful day yesterday, the kids and i, was ruined for me at the end of it by a sponsoring error thought, which led to more error thoughts.
i started the day by waking up at dawn, as usual, when the kids are asleep, and i have the quiet house all to my own, working on my Peace Psychology assignment, which i promised my professor id submit by noon yesterday.
oohhhh the working was good, the intellectual juices flowing. i put on the headphones and listened to HAV1 music in the background even as i focused on my assignment. i submitted my assignment by 11:30a.m., and feeling proud and very satisfied for having done such quality work, according to my very high standards too.
in between, i brought paolo to his taekwondo class, then came to pick him up again after i finished my assignment.
bea and i met him at the mall going down the stairs and complaining of a headache (again). that concerned me; he's been having a runny nose and cough for a week now, despite the medicines ive been giving him. id like to think that his headaches are caused by a stuffy nose, with the phlegm sort of stuck somewhere higher up in his nose, but now im not so sure.
he did ask for ice cream, though, to feel better, and i gave in. he had his ice cream but on the drive home, he fell asleep holding his ice cream.
anyway, when we arrived home i told him he'd better take paracetamol and go to bed. if he doesnt feel better by 2pm, we'd have to forego his taekwondo promotion test in the afternoon.
he did fall asleep, and i took a nap along with him.
at 2pm, he woke me up saying he felt much better. just to be sure, i said, go take a shower so you will be fresh and renewed for your taekwondo test.
i woke up 30 minutes later with the kids all dressed up and paolo back to his usual hyper, talkative self.
so we went to his taekwondo promotion.
the girls had fun taking turns taking pictures of him and each other and me. i let them be and just watched, savoring the mental break, until i do my next assignment in Religious and Ethical Perspectives on Peace, due today.
from then on, it was good again. paolo did very well in his taekwondo test and is now at high yellow belt level. then i treated the kids to a celebratory early dinner at Jollibee's and i was gratified to see paolo eating so well, for a change. a tiny, nagging worry crept up, though, when paolo used the small towel we brought along to cover himself up, because he said he was feeling cold from the aircon.
after the meal, we went to the nearby mall, and paolo asked if he could buy a Playstation 2 cd, for which he would repay me later at home from his savings. i mulled a moment, rearranging my budget in my mind, but then thea quickly joined and told me i don't have to pay her back the 2500 i still owe her from her Ipod target savings, as she has changed her mind anyway and don't have any plans on buying other things for her self now, but could we buy Paolo his cd now, as well as another one for her please?
that made me smile; how the kids help me think through my budget and try to make things easier for me. they are such wonderful loving thoughtful young human beings, and i am so proud of them and feel blessed by them.
so they had fun picking out their cds, while bea asked for a cookie lollipop for her self. and so we had a wonderful time again.
but on the way home, i was telling paolo that maybe we should take him to the doctor today, for a check up just to make sure. and paolo agreed.
but quietly, i ruminated at how it will wreck my budget now: a simple trip would take at least P500. i foresaw taking that out of what would have been bea's art lesson budget of 2000 come summer...
and then, the sponsoring thoughts, which were more like instant wordless thoughts than actually worded, conscious thoughts--
- ooh, bea won't be able to take her art lessons after all! i so wanted for her to have this now, as she's always the one left behind at home when paolo and thea have their lessons and all!
- maybe i'll just ask bea now that we'll buy her an inexpensive P300 art kit, to make up for it (and she'll surely say yes), so that frees up also the rest of the 2k budget for me to use for other things at home?
- oh god, here we go again, feeling constrained and tight, i hate it!
- i hate it when things don't go the way i planned them to be;
- isn't that nice, being the control freak again, huh?
- maybe it's really better for me not to be budgetting and sticking strictly to any budget at all; we've seemed to manage fine enough without them, and i feel better too, for having not to worry!
- let God and the Universe take care of us; God always provides; there's always more where these come from!
- ohhh my, isn't that mighty irresponsible of you, to throw away budgetting just so you can feel better and not worry?!!!
and so, those series of thoughts and arguments with my self, which occurred in only a few seconds, suddenly made me feel quite glum and blue and worrying again, worrying that there is not enough out there to go around with, and going back to negative, constricting scarcity mentality again.
how vulnerable i still am, huh, despite all my work.
but, at least, i can quickly trace them now, these sponsoring error thoughts.
still, one must always be on guard.
i see my mind now as a garden i am tending, and which is starting to bloom and bear beautiful fruit, without the weeds at last.
but, like the garden in The Secret Garden, i am learning that i must pay attention to it, pay loving and faithful attention in taking care of it, nurturing it, never letting any single stray weed even sprout, or it will just quickly bring down all the beautiful things that i have grown and built up so far.
P.S.
hmmm... look what i just got from my HappyNews.com subscription email --
http://www.happynews.com/news
an interesting, synchronistic rejoinder to what i have just experienced and learned from!
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
my Gratitude (and Victory) Log as of today
thank You, God/the Universe for--
- my three wonderful, beautiful, smart, loving children, whose minds and spirit are a constant font of wonder and joy and beauty and whose hearts are in the right place
- my and my children's good health;
- our happy home;
- the food that we eat, the clothes that we wear, the things that we get to enjoy;
- the people around us who love us and make life easier for us;
- the people around us who seem to make life difficult for us but actually make us grow into more patient, more tolerant, more understanding, more compassionate, stronger, richer human beings with both spine and spirit!
- my work
- my students
- the people i work with
- my children's school and teachers and classmates
- my dreams and hopes for my self and our future
- my kids' dreams and hopes for themselves
- my talents and skills
- my friends
- the Internet and blogging : ) and Blogger.com and P, which got me started blogging
- for M, who, with his blunder, helped birth Grace with Fire
- blogger friends
- pen, paper, notebook
- spa massages
- beauty parlor pampering treatments
- good, yummy lovemaking... mmmm... yumyumyum! :P (lick and slurp and swallow! heehee...)
- the Dean and how the recent experience with her has transformed me
- the ex even, and all the other little exes after him... and how ive learned and grown from being with them, finding out who i truly was, what i wanted, what i didn't want after all...
- my peace studies and classes
- peace journalism
- my writing
- The Spectrum
- IDS
- The Butterfly Source
- GiftsNHousewares by Gaea, Inc.
- pasta (especially carbonara and alfredo), rich coffee, vegan food, salads, soy milk, clean drinking water!
- books, the theatre, museums, art galleries, travel
- people
- human nature
- The Sound of Music, Out of Africa, Life is Beautiful, The Shawshank Redemption, The Little Prince, The Notebook, Leaving Las Vegas
- Illusions, How To Win Friends and Influence People, The Prophet, The Attractor Factor, Papa's House, Mama's House : )
- Silva Ultramind
- Holosync
- Stuart Lichtman
- EFT
- Mama Gena
- Jody Sachse's HAV1 music
- my past
- my present
- my future
- summer
- rain
- storms
- cloudy days
- breezy days
- the sea
- rivers
- lakes
- trees
- butterflies
- cats
- deer
- earthworms
- flowers
- herbs
- vegetables
- mama
- tope
- honey and ping
- even papa
- J... ohhhhh thank you soo much for J!!!
- gifts disguised as burdens
- gifts as gifts
- all the blessings we have received
- all the blessings we are receiving
- all the blessings coming our way!!!
- my three wonderful, beautiful, smart, loving children, whose minds and spirit are a constant font of wonder and joy and beauty and whose hearts are in the right place
- my and my children's good health;
- our happy home;
- the food that we eat, the clothes that we wear, the things that we get to enjoy;
- the people around us who love us and make life easier for us;
- the people around us who seem to make life difficult for us but actually make us grow into more patient, more tolerant, more understanding, more compassionate, stronger, richer human beings with both spine and spirit!
- my work
- my students
- the people i work with
- my children's school and teachers and classmates
- my dreams and hopes for my self and our future
- my kids' dreams and hopes for themselves
- my talents and skills
- my friends
- the Internet and blogging : ) and Blogger.com and P, which got me started blogging
- for M, who, with his blunder, helped birth Grace with Fire
- blogger friends
- pen, paper, notebook
- spa massages
- beauty parlor pampering treatments
- good, yummy lovemaking... mmmm... yumyumyum! :P (lick and slurp and swallow! heehee...)
- the Dean and how the recent experience with her has transformed me
- the ex even, and all the other little exes after him... and how ive learned and grown from being with them, finding out who i truly was, what i wanted, what i didn't want after all...
- my peace studies and classes
- peace journalism
- my writing
- The Spectrum
- IDS
- The Butterfly Source
- GiftsNHousewares by Gaea, Inc.
- pasta (especially carbonara and alfredo), rich coffee, vegan food, salads, soy milk, clean drinking water!
- books, the theatre, museums, art galleries, travel
- people
- human nature
- The Sound of Music, Out of Africa, Life is Beautiful, The Shawshank Redemption, The Little Prince, The Notebook, Leaving Las Vegas
- Illusions, How To Win Friends and Influence People, The Prophet, The Attractor Factor, Papa's House, Mama's House : )
- Silva Ultramind
- Holosync
- Stuart Lichtman
- EFT
- Mama Gena
- Jody Sachse's HAV1 music
- my past
- my present
- my future
- summer
- rain
- storms
- cloudy days
- breezy days
- the sea
- rivers
- lakes
- trees
- butterflies
- cats
- deer
- earthworms
- flowers
- herbs
- vegetables
- mama
- tope
- honey and ping
- even papa
- J... ohhhhh thank you soo much for J!!!
- gifts disguised as burdens
- gifts as gifts
- all the blessings we have received
- all the blessings we are receiving
- all the blessings coming our way!!!
The 40-Day Prosperity Plan
i found it! and in the original website where i first found it too (please click on the title above to go the hyperlinked website)!
the Prosperity Principles are by John Randolph Price--
the Prosperity Principles are by John Randolph Price--
1. God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me — the Reality of me.
2. I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I AM is the Source and Substance of all my good.
3. I am conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth.
4. Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my Source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply.
5. Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding, and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this Truth is unlimited, therefore, my supply is unlimited.
6. My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any unfulfilled needs or desires.
7. The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all sufficiency in my life and affairs.
8. My consciousness of the Spirit within me as my unlimited Source is the Divine Power to restore the years the locusts have eaten, to make all things new, to lift me up to the High Road of abundant prosperity. This awareness, understanding and knowledge of Spirit appears as every visible form and experience that I could possibly desire.
9. When I am aware of the God Self within me as my total fulfillment, I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this Truth. I have found the secret of life, and I relax in the knowledge that the Activity of Divine Abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the radiation, of that Creative Energy, which is continuously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my Divine Consciousness. I am now aware. I am now in the flow
10. I keep my mind and thoughts off "this world" and I place my entire focus on God within as the only Cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the Inner Presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me.
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